I'm also 20 years old and have been going through (probably) a lot of the same things as you. You may feel like your prayers don't get very far, but don't stop praying because I'm sure you will eventually begin to see Heavenly Father's answers. You may be scared or worried or just don't want to talk to your Bishop, but trust me you will feel better (everyone says that and I didn't believe it until I actually did). I didn't want to talk to my Bishop at all because I thought he seemed holier than thou and wouldn't understand. He ended up making feel so at ease with everything and now I know why he is the Bishop. It might sound cliche, but once I started falling away from the church I noticed myself becoming depressed and not so happy with life and very confused. I have recently (within the past few weeks) have been starting to "straighten myself out" and have noticed a change in my attitude in that short time. I know I have talked a lot about myself, but I thought maybe knowing someone else your age has been there and you're not alone you might feel better. Family is very important and you just have to love them and be there for them. But basically all this boils down to is what do you want for yourself? Figure that out and go from there. Anyways I hope my rambling helped, atleast a little bit.
