Thank you so much for all your replies. I am touched by them. My struggle must seem insignificant next to some. He told one of our girls, the one he gets on with more, who is not strong in the gospel, that when we asked what could be changed he was at a loss what to say, so said church. She reminded him that he has a testimony and he said he didn't. We try to listen but as with all our kids, they rebel against us and how we raised them, but the church becomes the casualty. he doesn't get along with one of his seminary teachers because she has said some very judgemental things about him, so yesterday I said he could do home study for all her classes. He said he's do home study for all, I said no, it was a compromise. He had 41/2 hrs on the game yesterday and my husband things we have to ban all games as it wastes their lives and changes their behaviour. Our youngest is a gameaholic too, and can spend hrs upon hrs on it. We do restrict it during the week but then they OD on Friday and Saturday.
He finishes school in 10 weeks and then it exams. He wants to go to Uni and wants to go to BYU. I'm a HS teacher and I'm sure he is not clinically ODD, but he is emotionally immature and has anger issues.
After my blow up last night, I am sure he is up early, waiting for a decent hour to take off again so he won't go to church. Our eldest went through exactly the same, broke some commandments, was told church or leave, ran away for 4 days, came back and had a few years of struggle, and has come around. He is different though and all of our children say he is angry, ungrateful and disrespectful. He wants his drivers' Lic but can't be bothered to do the necessary driving, would rather make up hrs, he wants University but can't focus enough on school to study. He works mostly to get game time. On the upside he is a happy boy when everything is going smoothly and there is no pressure on him and we are not restricting his computer time. He does his priesthood responsibilities without any trouble and participates positively in class. He CAN be very loving. He quit his job cause he said he didn't like it (3hrs a week). Quit his basketball team because it isn't fun anymore because he's the weakest player (Church team). He is on Roaccutan for acne and I'm wondering if that is somehow affecting his mood. Hard to tell as we have see this behaviour before, just not so bad.
Thanks for listening everyone. Any insight is gratefully accepted.