LDSpunkrocker

looking back i really feel like a fool, i knew yet i tried to deny it to myself. i guess we are our own worst enemy.

thank you. the dog doesn't care too much for me though haha although over the last month she seems to be a little more at ease with me, maybe she can sense the change in me?

thanks so much for that link, at one point in my life i went to AA meeting but found too many angry people, it did help though, i have almost no desire to drink alcohol anymore but it has been a slow progress. my biggest problem is with tobacco, i used smoking as a crutch when i was in rehab but that just ended up another addiction, almost 2 years ago i quit smoking and decided to have my gums start earning their keep, give my lungs a break lol ( people with asthma should never smoke:p ). i think chewing may be harder to give up than cigarettes were but i have faith that i will overcome my addictions, with help of course;)

for me being without it had left a empty void in my soul that i tried to fill with all the wrong things. looking back heavenly father had still blessed me so much and even protected me a few times when i probably didnt deserve it. i am thankful for that

so true. reminds me of the quote "i never said it would be easy" it sure hasnt been haha

thank you very much, im good at rambling lol

I have been intrigued by this since i was a kid. I believe there are many things on the earth that are still undiscovered. Id really like to believe that things such as bigfoot and the loch ness monster exist but i have yet to see any real proof. anyone listen to coast to coast? they have had cryptozoologists on quite a few times and its always entertaining.

Hello, i just signed up on the board. my name is Sam and i have been inactive in the church since i was 18, i recently celebrated my 33rd birthday. Well i thought since i just signed up i would offer a bit of my background. I was born into the church and the majority of my family have been continuously active members apart from some other relatives myself and my two brothers. I have been rebellious ever since i can remember, i have always had a problem with authority etc etc. i found my way into the punk rock scene when i was around 12/13 years old and of course me being the rebel i was i loved the anti authoritarian attitude of the music. It wasnt long before i got involved with drugs, drinking and various criminal activities, short story, i had strayed far from the church but in the back of my head the principals i learned as a kid would always remind me of how i was living was wrong, sure i tried to deny the existence of god so i could justify my actions and yet i always knew i was doing wrong. fast forward to a few years ago, i had become involved with the occult, addicted to narcotic pain killers and in a deep depression, while reading through some occult publications i ran across an article talking about the book holy blood holy grail ( for those who are unaware of this book it talks about the same subject as the davinci code..id rather not go into detail because for me it invites an unholy spirit) after reading about these "conspiracy theories" on jesus and mary i decided to start researching the bible and eventualy the book of mormon again. i decided to go back to school and took some religious history classes and began to read the scriptures more and start praying again. i have left most of my previous practices and lifestyle behind now but i am still struggling with some word of wisdom problems. i still have not been to church in a long time but i am reading the scriptures and listening to material available on lds.org, i hope that soon i can get the courage to abandon fully my former life and become an active member again. sometimes i feel like i needed to go down that path to learn first hand the dangers but man i wish i would have just taken my parents word for it:lol:sorry for the rambling, im a bit scatterbrained at times.