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Thanks, Now its just a matter of waking up in time...

So, some of you may remember me for some "interesting" Problems I had. well, that's pretty much dealt with. but I lost track of the church, and because of work (What an Excuse) Started skipping, I have not been to my ward for over a year. In November I quit my job to pursue another Career and now have Sundays off. I've been to one meeting where I wandered in Quite unprepared to be at church (I was a ride in a ward far far away) So enough of the typing and telling of the story My question is How does one get back on the right track? I finally managed to give up smoking, I'm following the WoW and I just need to get back into going to service and having Sunday being Gods day. Can I have some Advice? X Normandy Park, Washington

And inside my mail is a credit card. I got a Credit card, from the same company that I Bankrupted less than a year ago, I had to file for Bankruptcy because of medical issues, and the card was included. I'm glad that I got a Credit card so I can Start building my credit. But I'm trying to be responsible, And tips, As I do need to rebuild my credit- I'm not trying to be super credit boy.. but It would be nice to be able to buy a newer car if I wanted too, or a new computer on credit... So any advice on credit stuff would be great.

Spoke to my Bishop today. He talked to me about what would have happened if I had been a M. priesthood holder, and he told me that I need to think about it, and he also gave me advice about what to do. And the words that he gave me, were the same as I had come to think, Trust. I can't go into a marriage without trust. I told him, my plan. Was to slow it down. and try and see if I could rebuild the trust, and see if there was a chance. I'm not gonna run away but I will walk and see what happens. I also Got A hair cut... But he also told me that I should go to the Des Moines Ward for sacrament because It is at 9. and ours it at 11 so at least that solves that problem. now if only I can get to ward coordination and meet with the missionaries and quit smoking. and and and and

John doe. Love your XKCD Avatar... Although longer I would like to use the Dear God, YES MY CHILD? I would like to file a bug report

There was this Lady at my ward, about my age who had just converted. I liked her quite a bit. before all of this. Hmm...

Hey all, As most of you know I have been going through some tough times lately. and I have been tempted to break the words of wisdom, although I have broken one, I started smoking again. I have however vowed not to break the other words of wisdom, I need help getting back on track, I think part of my problem is my current work situation that keeps me away from pretty much all of the church activities. (My boss isn't willing to work with me on this) I have prayed and prayed and read scriptures for that feeling that I had prior to joining the church, that got me to quit in the first place. I don't know what to do. I'm back up to a pack a day. It hurts that I can't even follow the basic of commandments. Any advice would be appreciated BTW: I have smoked since I was 13, and my parents smoked my entire life. so its really hard. Along with everything else in my life, 2009 was a crappy year except for my baptism. I'm praying for a good 2010

Thanks for Serving, Hopefully I will have the chance to serve again, and get to the sand pit, 7 years in and no deployment, I can't give any advice on a partner joining the church. Hijack.. WHAT is with the green jello? end hijack

My bishop has not gotten back to me on this subject. I talked to him. he told me he would call me. I am leaning strongly towards walking away. I am afraid to be alone. I don't do well. I'm thinking about re-enlisting in the military. My career is going no where, and my country is all I have. I've given my country a good portion of my life. (reserve time) and it will take my mind of some of the crappy things that have happened. I have had bad relationship after bad relationship. I end up going for girls with kids. and I end up being dad. I'm thinking that its time for me to just give up. I don't know. I guess I'm rambling.

Just got done talking to her, She was crying the entire time. She didn't tell me because she was afraid. afraid that I would leave her. The babies due date is April 27th. She wants me there. she thought about abortion when she found out it wasn't mine because she didn't want to scare me away. But then she decided that she couldn't do that because that would make me mad. and definitely leave her. I asked her if she had been reading the BOM that I sent her and she told me yes. I asked her if she would go to services for me, while in Paris and she agreed. So, after actually talking to her for about an hour. We came to a partial decision. That we would take our time. I would come visit a couple more times. we would continue to talk on a regular basis, and that things aren't the same. But it doesn't make a difference to me weather the kid is mine or not. She came clean to me. she told me why and she lied. I'm not happy about the situation. But I still Really care about her. the advice I have gotten on this board has been a huge help in letting me handle this, I told her that this does change things. but I still have feelings for her. I don't know yet if I'm gonna marry her. I don't know yet if It will even work out. but I'm gonna give it a shot, She was sincere today when I talked to her. She was crying most of the time. Only God knows what happens from here.

Your words, they Strengthen me. I'm still torn. but I know that I think I need to be objective. and I'm leaning more towards Leaving this situation. I'm still kind of in shock. I'm still hurting. Its just been a lot of Hard relationships for me over the years and this was the first time I felt loved back. kinda sad huh.

I don't know if I mentioned this. I went in September. The baby is due in April. it was before me. She told me there was someone before me. but I didn't quite understand her in thinking she "HAD BEEN WITH HIM" she wanted to tell me. But didn't know how. atleast on the phone. that is why she had her sister do it. and I think that it was better that her sister told me because I would have probably just hung up on her. Yes, I know I need to think about this. And that is what I'm doing. Edited for another note, My membership in the church has not been questioned. I still have the Priesthood. She has a Book of Mormon, (In Tagalog) She knows that Religion is important to me and has said she would like me to baptize her. She has been working with missionaries.(assuming my Bishop will let me, him and I have not really gotten along to well). I agree, the Biodad Has a chance and need to stand up. I Cried myself to sleep, Last night. probably not something someone of my Statue should be saying out loud. I just couldn't figure it out. But I'm feeling pretty good about my decision I've made so far. I don't run. I made a promise to her, and I intend on keeping it. Edited again for Ages, 26 For my self 34 for her. Edited again for my personal feelings. Even after all of this I have forgiven her. My pride hurt, Yes. do I think It can still work, Yes. Zach Monroe.

I am going back and forth on this... I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to stand up and be there. part of me wants to walk away. I'm not so sure.. kinda depressed. Thank you Dr. for a cabinet full of Medications to help with that... FYI: I'm Bipolar, with depression, PTSD. I'm used to dealing with depression. I'm just going through the stages.

I'm Filipino As well, Although only an 1/8th and she doesn't appear to be a psycho, She does speak English well but not Conversationally. there are times when we don't understand each other. Her aunt is like a second mom to me, and Her sister is an outstanding woman. She asked her sister to tell me about the situation, and her sister and I had about a two hour conversation, I felt broken hearted at first. but now I know how I feel. I grew up never know what it was like to have a real family. I grew up with my grandmother, never having a father figure really. The neighborhood I grew up in is dotted with houses where I am always welcome, because I became like family. I have vowed in my life to make a difference. I may not be this boys father but god be willing I will do the best job I can. I'm talking to my bishop for advice, I have talked to the missionaries at my ward. And even though I am around the world from her I still constantly have her on my mind. I still believe in her the same way I did. the same way I am. Her sister asked me when we were done with the conversation.... how I felt, I told her I need to think, And she responded to me that no matter my decision there would be no hard feelings. and she reassured me that her sister does have feelings for me. This hurts. But I'm happy for her. and I think I'm happy for me too.

I know, I know... its a long story. I trust her and her family.. a family that has been like family me for a long time. I'm going to Stand up, And be there.

Not Mine, Still Plan on being there

She was a Virgin. and We have paperwork to prove early pregnancy. I don't know i will figure it out... I guess.

I would also agree, But I was her first. this I know...

My life has been rather Chaotic, to say the least lately. As I posted earlier, I was in Paris for 16 days where I fell in Love, Yes I said it Love, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I proposed to her. We talk daily. I stay up late to talk to her. due to the time difference. I'm Learning her Native Language so I can communicate easier. I sent her a Tagalog BOM, and gave her the address of Several wards within a few kilometers of her apartment. Although I had to Explain who Nephi Was... (that was an interesting conversation) the other day she left an URGENT message on my Voice mail... so I called her, She's Pregnant, Yes its mine, Yes I broke the law of Chastity. Yes I'm trying to get a hold of my bishop, no answer And my tithing checks have not been cashed so I'm assuming he is out of town. I don't know Why exactly I'm writing this Message here on this message board. I Feel guilty because I have been walking away from the church as of late. I've told the missionaries that I don't want any more classes, until I figure all of this out. I'm so happy about the situation, I finally have what I have wanted for a long time, A family. Well soon anyway. Maybe I'm crazy, She started talking baby names yesterday and told me we were going to have a Zach Jr if its a boy, and I get to come up with names for a girl... So far, I have several, Kaori = Strong in Japanese Annora = With Honor Kiada = Little Dragon (my kid will definitely be a little dragon) Saya Mayu Kristen (a girl I have known since Elementary school Who actually helped bring me to the Church) Elisa Joanne (Joan of Arc was an obsession of mine.) I don't know I guess this is just a random post.

I Think I know what you are saying, as I am a brother who has been struggling with my faith, and my life. (Mental Illness) I have only been a member of the church since May 30th. of this year, and since I was in Paris and even here, I am having trouble with Paying my tithe, following the Words of Wisdom, the law of Chastity and other things. Two nights ago, I kneeled down and Prayed, until I felt the way I felt when I first held the Book of Mormon, and I feel as though I'm working to get back on track. I realized I had been using an Excuse to break the rules. actually two of them... "hey I'm new I forgot about it" and "thats What Sacrament is for." I have thought about leaving the Church but nothing I have ever seen or felt equals what I feel when I'm helping with my calling (which is not often with my work schedule) I don't know if I wrote this huge thing for nothing but I hope maybe I helped somehow. Zach Semper Fidelis.

Absolutely, I agree. And I'm thinking about it everyday. People who really know me... say that since I came home, I'm a completely different person. its kinda amazing what has happened to me... I actually see a future with her. I see a family with her. I've never seen that before. its pretty cool actually.

Well, As a Philipino myself, I Just know. It something down deep... Yeah TNT She is the Neice of A Very Close friend Ellen.... we got to the point were we were staying together in her apartment, and now I can't sleep with out her.. its said. I'm even learning Tagalog Ingat Ka. I'm in the Jean Jacket. And she is on me left

Yet, Schools Like Kennedy, Highline, Tyee, Evergreen, And Mt. Rainier are all Equipped with Outdoor Hallways. I was A Guy fully Dressed with a Trenchcoat on and I froze my Tush off... Class of '01 PIRATES!! Hmm...

As some of you know I just got done with a pretty bad relationship that ended in June of this year, and then the breakup stretched all the way through to September when I finally got all of my stuff back from her, and in September I left for Paris, France. I was there for Sixteen Days, I went with close friends, who I think kinda wanted to set me up with there Niece. Well it worked. I prayed every night while I was there if This is what god wanted for me, And I kept getting closer and closer to her. Her Name is Angelica she is 34, From the Philippines and currently living in France. After the 7th Day I knew I loved her. on the Eighth day I bought her an Engagement ring, Again after Thoughtful prayer, and when I proposed not even knowing her Ring Size We got it right with a Diamond Ring off the shelf. I wont say that I acted as a perfect Mormon while I was there I did make a few transgressions, but I feel as though I was lead this way. When I told her about the Church and how important it was to me she wanted to learn more, and go to church with me. We didn't go because I don't know a word of French and I didn't want to end up in the meetings were I couldn't understand anything. but she told me That if it was important to me that she would Consider Joining the Church, -- Flash forward a couple of days and I'm home... and some of my friends start to put doubt in my mind, about weather or not she is coming here for the visa. I think about the Events of the last couple of weeks and I go there are two many things that went right during the trip. I went to the Deseret books, and picked up an Ensign, and if any of you have seen it the last page of this months is the Manilla Temple in the Philippines. (as soon as I saw that I knew that this was right because then we could go there to be sealed near her home town.) I've ordered her a BOM in Tagalog (her Native Language) and it should be here someday. and then I had the missionaries come over and I talked with them for a while... and I was made aware that I could baptize her. so I figure if she likes the church and wants to be baptized then I will do it... Anyways If any of you have not fallen asleep yet. we were debating on the phone the other day if I should go to France, to live- or if we should go to the Philippines, or If she should come here. And Currently the winner is here.. is there anyone who has any law experience/Visa knowledge/Brains cause I'm not sure if I got everything I need to file this stuff and I need help. I'm trying... but I rode the Short bus... Thanks Zach

Yeah the only bad thing is I'll catch a couple of episodes of Ranma, and the go see my dad... And he knows I like Ranma so he does the voices.