For 20+years I have lived in silence while my dear husband has had a probem with porn. He had this problem before we married. The internet came along and it has been a part of our lives ever since. He has always gone to te Bishop and has even had a full year of being clean, but I am now finding myself freaking out more and more because of his problem and I am finally ready to start going to 12 step programs. If your husband refuses to admit or get help, get help for yourself. You are codependent. I know this because I am this. I have proected him and "the secret" for well over 2 decades now, because he is a good man, and I did not want people to view him poorly. He has always gone to the Bishop and confessed. he is always trying. He loves his family, but has a very big problem which has stolen my trust and hurt my family. I also have a 20 year old son, who has not gone on a mission because he too addict and suffering greatly. Porn has messed up my eternal family and my eternal marriage. It has stolen my dreams and I have no concept of what eternity is anymore. I have no idea how this will all turn out. I have to have faith, and I do have faith, but right now I am very sad and angry. If you want to know more you can go to my new blog. If you want to share, feel free. Wife of an LDS Porn Addict It is my faith, love of the Lord, and my Family that keep me going. Angel
