While others condemn, the Lord knows all and is forgiving. Sometimes we need to go until it hurts. I'm currently inactive and despite the fact that I don't really know if the church is true or not anymore, I am planning on going until it hurts and maybe then I'll have a change of heart. You know what is right, but when you don't, God is there. God is always there regardless. Seek him out and continue to read your scriptures and pray and maybe God will change your heart if you sincerly desire it.