Last March I met a man and we got on extremely well as friends.
We were totally opposite. He was (and still is) a member of the church, whereas I wasn't.
Our lifestyles were totally different, I would go out and drink with friends and party, while he didn't. However, something clicked between us and we started spending more and more time together. I was always fully aware that he had a girlfriend back in America (we live in England), so I never expected, or wanted, anything but friendship.
But as we spent more and more time together I fell in love. Completely. I have never known the sound of someone's name make me smile like it did, and still does.
We started a relationship. We even slept together.
However things couldn't continue, and he was honest with his girlfriend we both asked him to choose. After visiting her over in America for a month he decided to stay with her. That was the hardest time of my life ... just waiting.
To say I felt heartbroken is an understatement. I was devestated. I felt like life couldn't go on without him. Then he told me that he planned on proposing to her last Christmas. I was crushed.
We work together, so there was never a chance of a clean break between us. Things became extremely difficult. And he has even kissed me since then. I know it's wrong. But when he's all I want, I find the temptation too hard.
We went through a stage where we didn't talk, and we lost the friendship between us. A friendship I hold very dear to me. He is the one person on this planet I feel I can share anything with. He knows every secret of mine, knows every fault and doesn't judge.
I thought that by being angry with him, and almost hating him at once point it would help me to get over him, because I know I need to. But it hasn't? I don't know what else to do.
I had a clairvoyant reading the other night, and she talked about this guy a lot, she said things about him that she had no way of knowing, unless she could get into my head. She also said that he would leave overseas and get married, but he'd regret it. And that one day, in the future, he would eventually come back. You can imagine how this has affected me.
I'm sorry for writing so much - I just need advice on how to get over him?! I know the sort of advice my friends would give, and going back to the lifestyle I used to have before I met him isn't something I want to do.
Does anyone have any advice?
Thanks in advance. :)
