claygirl

hi again I read the bike post again. I FEEL |MOVED When it comes to ex. equip. You get what you pay for. Cheap stuff does not work well and you will stop. Trust me. Any stat. "bike" under $500 is crap. Period. Craigs list. You can find good gear. Now when it comes to recumbents-get on that moves-you can go with trikes or high racers. check it out-I would think about a trike-I am sure you can get a used one for 500 and a new intro model for around 1500-I have a trike. I like it. They are heavy and slower than a rd bike. But they are fun and you will not get bored. If you do.-try mountain climbing.:)

Hi there "bike people" I dont know how we got on to bikes but...... DO NOT GET A BIKE THAT GOES NO WHERE. You will get bored and stop. Get a real bike (craigs list) and start easy. 2 miles maybe for alwhile-and of course you can get a fluid trainer for indoor work. For bike gear; I get all of my gear through Competitive Cyclist (on line)-NQA policy-you can even returns bibs that you have used-try that at a bike shop. I am a road bike human. You need to move to stay fit. But for me it is more for my PTSD than the body. start off slow and in a year ........ wow I love the sport. Give it a shot. take care

To Rufuswhitman Well said -There seems to be a great deal of fear and hurt surrounding the words "I love you" I am no stranger to the hurts and fears of love. But I never gave up. Finally I can say I love you so much.... with no pain to my beautiful wife. Just freedom of feeling. Really feeling. Real feeling. I am truly blessed. With tears good night

thx-no time now to give a thought ans. now-will get back to it, School winding down and all of that take care claygirl

I say I love you all the time to my wife.-my wife says it with her eyes-no words are necessary. But I will say that when I say I love you, I feel the words fall short. The words by their very limited nature, miss the mark really- most of the time. Direct Experience not language/ Besides it is a virus.:) I missed misscrytals message?

get a rd bike

a very complex ans :) like that By detachment a hot button word for people with ptsd. What I meant was not disassociation (a ptsd coping skill) but embracing the Now. I have a wonderful life for lots of reasons. I have a most wonderful women, we live in a log home in the mountaiins, we teach next door to each other, cats,dogs,chickens fruit trees a huge garden.and the frogs are singing right now (tears) What more could I have. nothing..The past is the ..... as they like say. Western approaches are toxic to me. I have found them to be to simple. But let me share with you what does help the ptsd. I am cyclist. I use to race. Given my cycling style.. I know if I dont focus I could crash. (not fun ) So the focus checks it. And a good endurance ride puts away in it box I need to build more boxes for better thinking. As you know , one thing that ptsd does is to hinder the brains ability to file. Information is just all over the place unprocessed in a ptsd damaged brain. How to burn the box is my next goal. :)

These jokes are as funny if youdont care about people

No make fun of suffering is not funny

Why all of the mean comments about people. shame on you

Forgiveness. Thought about that a lot. I would only do that if it would make me feel better. My intellect says it makes sense of course. My heart says forget it. To forgive a "man of God" that hurt me, could care less about his "family" , and my parents. Well? But what I would like to work on is detachment. But having over the line PTSD. That may be tricky. Because one reaction to having PTSD-is just that -one detaches so you dont feel anything. But what I mean by detachment is just. --To move on and feel. (think with ur heart and feel with ur brain) I had a bad ptsd attack this morning. What got me to school was Tinas Love and my love for teaching the kids clay. It is one of few real experienecs HS kids can have in school now.. I am bit of a legend at Henry. The kids love me and the adminstrators are scared of me. so they leave me alone. Perfect. thx for the kind words Ron

Hi- never been to Idaho-I think it would be nice to visit. Tina and I talk all the time. She listens so well. And payment is easy,back rubs. Sometimes people come up to us and think we have been married for years. And we tell them 12, they are touch.-Because they see that we are so close they assume we have been married much longer. I am getting over this self worthlessness, less then 0 etc feelings. But I have found over the years, pychs to be toxic to my spirit. After the suit, I will never r see one again. The Dali Lama? maybe:) You folks have helped me to get over that wall- I know that I am no longer a abused teen by a minister who I trusted and looked to. Until... the repeated attacks came. (2yrs) The Lawsuit is over..time to move on and make with Tina the best clay objects we have ever made together. I form and construct the objects. Tina adds the surface magic. We just finished a black widow teapot series. Tea anyone? thx Ron

Hi-Watch lawn bowing. in Balboa park:) But you proably would rather see the zoo, art galleries -great place the park-And SD downtown has really become an interesting to walk around.:) We live in the mountains so we dont get to see much of SD City proper these days. Have a good time and Hillcreast is an interesting place here as well. Ron and Tina, Potrero

Hi I have found all of the support helpful. The one I like- the getting over the walls comment as we mature. I have pondered that concept lots of times. But I have been block at 16 on several levels. for all of my life. Tina and I are perfect for each other. We are both artists and share the same values. It is just my sense of insecurity. etc. that makes me feel-how could anyone .... I have been in therapy lots of times. I could really act the part. But I now know, western therapy is really quite toxic to me. Want nothing to do with it anymore. During the lawsuit against the TSA the treatment by a pych. almost proved fatal Gave me some nasty drugs that destroyed my ability to sleep well to this day..- and of course the lawyer only cared about herself. I settled, but I wonder if it was worth it. Justice is hard to come by.-I hope this did not come off as a rant. It just still really hurts. Tears Ron

hi Pam Yes indeed. Football well...But I have some baseball players in my classes. Great group of mature and smart young men. I am going to attend the first game.this year. Why? I have told them they have made a difference in my classes and I will be there for them. And the ladies. They have really been the champs at henry for the last several years. Again most of them know where they are going, These young women are going to make a difference in the world. We live in the mountains had a lot of rain today. My bike ride 10 miles out had to turn around Take Care Ron and Tina, sorry for the lengh of the post, but I thought you would some news about PHHS -but times are tough, but I always tell the kids we will make this work I teach ceramics with a spiritual approch. Right now clay is hard to come by. wow-the most common thing on the earth-clay, that is why i like it

Hi Kind words. -I think about those issues all the time #1 is the winner-childhood trauma-I was 16 -but who does not have some? R

hi Pam, I teach with my wife, Tina -at Patrick Henry in San Diego-S.D. ack!! cold Ron

Hi Just a joke. I teach cerramics at a HS in SD-it is also my user name for chesscom-where most of the players are male, so it my little joke on them-good site if you like chess Ron

Hi My wife, Tina loves so much and I loveher to the ends of the earth....But she loves me to much. What I mean by that is she always puts me first. But she is also a very strong and independent women. Which I enjoy and support. (I would not like a puppy dog if you know what I mean.) I just feel gulity and I dont feel I deserve this kind of love that I treasure....well thats what is on my mind Ron