joyalgirl5298

Kick him to the curb.

I think I know where you're coming from. I've been married for 30 years and I've hated my husband more than I've loved him. For the very reasons you describe. When we dated, became engaged, and were first married, his attitudes weren't apparent. He seemed like my knight in shining armor. Now, I feel I've wasted my life on someone whose selfishness has been the motivating factor in how we interacted as a couple and also how we parented. I attempted suicide. I left him. Tried counseling. I loved him so much at first that I couldn't believe I was so wrong about someone and kept trying to get that love back. It's only now that I'm waking up to my error. Don't let anybody shame or guilt you. If I had it to do over again, I'd never have married him.

My friend, who was a stake president, told me that one reason pornography is so harmful is that it leads a man to view his wife in mechanical terms and be dissatisfied with a normal loving sexual relationship. It becomes boring to them. The other ill effects in terms of spiritual darkness have been delineated pretty well. But that was new information to me. Very sad situation. I agree that internet filters and constant watchfulness on your part are not the solution. I also recommend some kind of recovery group for you. I've found Alanon to be very helpful God bless you.