I respect gay people in the church just like I respect black people in the church. Some things are hard to understand. by the way I am black. and I know the churches past
but I believe in Jesus Christ and I have felt the spirit in my life and I know I have and I can never and will never deny it.
I applaud you for trying really hard to keep your family together if more people worked half as much as you the world would be a better place.
I don't know what you should do but I want to wish you all the luck in the world.
P.S keep praying
I don't know what to say, Hope you stay close to the Lord he will give you the strength you need.
Don't beat yourself up to much I shout at my kids we all do does not mean you are bad.
get help for yourself may the Lord bless you