LightSeeker

thanks for the advice everyone. Dove, I really appreciate your opinion, when I wrote the post I was seriously thinking on divorce. But I talked to my husband and we are trying to work on our issues. I have been thinking about love not as that magical feeling we always relate it to, but in a wider concept. Love implies sacrifice, and maybe my marriage is worth saving. We are going to marriage counseling soon, and about the fights, well we both take our part, I have to recognize it. My husband has always say he loves me, even when I say I'm not so sure. and about church we talked about it and will work on that as well. I know it's not an easy road to happy marriage, but there are sometimes that Ijust want to give up, that´s why I wanted some external opinion.

Hi, I would like some advice , dont really know where to start, i guess from the beggining... I dated my husband for 4 years before marrying him in the temple 8 months ago. We are both 24. I had been lds most of my life and he baptized afte 2 years of dating. I was not living the gospel when I met him and we had problems with the Low of Chastity and WOW. We tried to change that, we confessed, the bishop told us not to think about the past and stop the bad habits. We did it almost for a year but a month before the wedding it happened again. I started having second thoughts about the wedding, may be my parents felt it and told me that I was still on time to call it off but I was to ashamed and I made what I think is the worst mistake of my life. I lied in the interview and got married. Since we married I have been depressed and my husband and I dont agree in anythin we just keep fighiting and fighting. The first two months we really tried to overcome the problems but at the end we just gave up and (is not a excuse) we went back to drinking (it's almost the only time when we agree and get along) and we just go to church ocassionally. Our marriage is so messed up that we had fought and I mean like physical fights, this is so not normal. I just want to get out of this situation, cant stand it anymore. And to make things worst now that we are married I dont feel attraction to my H, I even feel somehow repulsed by him or the thought of intimacy (and this is one of the main problems) I think it is because of the guilt, and he doesnt understand why I changed that. Right now Iam sleeping uppstairs and he is downstairs. I dont think I love my H anymore. Oh, and going to the bishop is not an option, my H would never go with him cause they had an argument sometime ago, and they dont talk to each other. We had considered counseling, we talked about it last week , we wanted to work on our relationship after a HUGE fight and we actually tried , we read a book on marriage and it was working but then everythin started falling apart,. AGAIN, as many times before. I wannna write a letter to request temple cancellation, confess that I lied and may be the marriage isnt even valid buty I dont have the courage to do it. My H doesnt want me to write the letter

Hi.. this is my first post but I wanted to reply because a couple of hours ago I decided to download an app that allows me to use my iPhone as a credit card, now I don´t have to take the card everywhere I can do all the transactions with the phone:D