MoHeartbrokenGuy

wonderful movies..I have watched them a few times..Tho I havent read the books "my wife had" I still loved the plot and storyline.

thats odd

Thanks so much guys and gals....My intentions were not to talk about the issues she has done, but only to address my beliefs on forgiveness and repentance, and to say that tho I have struggled lately with my marriage, I do forgive my wife and those that speak with twisted tounges....Maybe I will stick to the basic testimony...Again, thanks everyone, it makes a difference.

Want to see what others think..If its going to call into question my sanity or have the microphone shut off while im burying my testimony, then I shall refrain..... My wife and I are seperated as of April 20, 2012....We seperated for reasons that were out of my control, that I have begged her to stop, but she continues. I have been asking HF for direction, and where my life is headed. We have been married 10 months, and courtshipped 29 months before we got married..During that time there was infidily, once physical, and for 15 months, emotional with my best friend..We are adults "me 41, her 44, he 39" and she has kids with her deceased husband, and I with my ex-wife. After the affair came to the surface, she weeped and weeped and promised that there would be no contact with the guy. After looking thru her online cell phone account "which we both gave the other our passwords to be open" it showed that she had been "talking" to other men since the day we started dating..After a 12 month phycology visits for her on my request or the marriage wouldnt happen, she did follow thru with the visits..I went to several visits when I was in Utah visiting her from my home state, and I was so proud of the progress she was making, or so I thought. I have ended the relationship several times before we got married 10 months ago due to lies and/or guys....Those things have haunted us weekly since our marriage, and have caused great strain on family and friends, as well as our ward. Since seperating 4 weeks ago, she has gone into a defensive, protect herself mode thinking I was going to tell members of her past..Now she has lied and spread rumors to the members of my ward that I have gone to 14 years..She moved here in Sept. 2011 so doesnt really know the people at church, but that hasnt stopped her from spreading rumors. She was diagnosed with a lying disorder and a sex addict....Those 2 things have plagued us. Will it be wrong of me during testimony meeting to speak of the truths of our seperation, without being hateful or nasty?..And if so, how deep do I go as far as addressing 2 members who have believed her lies?..Those 2 ladies are known for being hateful and rumorish to whoever is having trouble in the ward. I do love her and want our marriage to work, as I believe in making a marriage work at "almost" any cost....As of today, I got a call from my ex-friend she had the affair with telling me that my wife recently contacted him yesterday and they met up. I just want to set the record straight for those in attendance..I am a respectable guy in the ward, but her lies and rumors are not helping.

When we as members of the church say "I Do" and place that beautiful ring on the finger of our spouse, we are counseled by the leaders of the church to do any and all possible to make the marriage work. I am in a seperation as of April 20, 2012, and from my experience, it is killing me inside..We seperated because of my wifes inability to tell the truth, and her lies the past 3 1/2 years of courtship and the past 10 months of marriage have been destructive. I hope you can put the lord first, and you spouse second, and open your heart to what we are asked to do, and that is be a respectful and loving spouse for all of eternity. Good Luck