The way I see it, God expects us to follow certain steps to improve ourselves. One of the most important steps is Eternal Marriage and Procreation. God needs more righteous souls on the earth being brought up in righteous families in his kingdom. The blessings of spiritual enlightenment aren't achieved by independent personal meditation alone or just inner soul searching but by sacrifice of that which is easy replacing it with that which is worth it. Selflessness in marriage and parenting is the ultimate form of Christ like love that we are able to consciously choose and attempt to achieve and a huge step towards being capable of complete Christ like love(Charity) toward all people. Depending upon what type of personality you are attracted that type of person can and likely does exist in a male body. You just have to understand what that personality is and find it. It's not likely to be easy to find but I am sure your match exists at this time and in your age range somewhere.