Hey guys, thanks so much for the replies. You cannot imagine how much I appreciate the kind words.
The past few days have been extremely bad for me as I spoke about my conversion to my father and he said that if I do get officially baptised he will disown me and never see my face for the rest of his life. He have a whole talk about how he had raised me, given me a good education and supported me and now, I am paying back him by leaving Islam. My Dad is extremely fundamentalist and beleives that apostates should be killed. He said that he has paid over £10,000 for me to get a good education in the UK and used all of his life's savings for this (the living costs and rent in the UK is really expensive) in just one year of my studies. And now, I just feel so guilty for betraying him and I can't beleive that he is disowning me for just leaving Islam.
My Mum, thank God, was a lot more helpful. She said that she will love me no matter what but is extremely hurt by the fact that I have left my religion. She also said that she is compelled to disown me too but her love for me won't let her do it so she just doesn not know what to do. But, I can feel that she does not love me anymore and is extrmely hurt.
i have been really depressed in the past few days and I've got my exams in just two weeks. I cannot study or revise and I haven't eaten properly in weeks. Even my flatmates have noticed this.
Please do pray for me, guys.