elizabella

I'm trying to be positive, but I'm feeling very overwhelmed and undermined. The missionaries asked to come over to show us a Christmas video. They never showed us the video but gave my son the first lesson. I told them during that visit that my son has a difficult relationship with his dad and that baptism dates would be a rocky subject. Yet they come every week, asking him when he'll commit to being baptised. I don't appreciate the pressure, if I'm being honest. My son suffers from depression and anxiety. The last thing he needs is more pressure from something that should be bringing him great joy. Furthermore, why the rush? Maybe because I'm a convert that never served a mission but I don't understand why this feels like it's on everyone else's time table than that of my family. I'm feeling very bitter. I want to return to church, I just do not want to feel like I'm being overwhelmed, which I very much do right now.

Thank you for the welcome :)

Happy New Year to all! I'm new, obviously. I'm forty years old and converted to the church when I was 14. After I was baptised, my sister and mother both converted. My mother was active until her death. My sister is inactive and very anti-LDS. I've spent the majority of my adult life inactive. About three years ago, the missionaries came to check on me and to make a long story short, my husband was baptised. We attended church faithfully for about a year, then stopped. I'm not sure there was really a reason we stopped. I think we were both overwhelmed with work and church commitments. In November, MY mother passed away. I worked with the church to provide her the funeral she desired abd found in doing so such comfort and fellowship that we haven't missed a Sunday since my mother passed away. My son who is 17, is receiving the missionary discussions and is interested in meeting baptised. His dad (my ex-husband) is not supportive. The missionaries have also requested to meet with my husband and I separately, which honestly makes me feel like I'm a remedial Mormon or something. I am working hard to build my own testimony thru prayer and scripture study. I don't know why I feel almost insulted that the missionaries are working so hard on my family. I was just hoping to gain some perspective and not lose the excitement I had about going back to church.