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Wow!!! I love this!!! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts, this makes so much sense to me, thank you so much!!!

Thank you so much, you are so sweet. I do think I will look for a therapist...I think I definitely need to talk to someone who can help me see that the way I feel isn't normal...so often it feel completely normal to me, but when I burst into tears from exhaustion, I know it probably isn't. And I always hide my tears because I don't want anyone else to know how overwhelmed I am feeling...I just want to be happy. Thank you for you help and your wonderful advice <3

Thank you prisonchaplain

So do you think just by reading my post that it looks like a mental health issue and not a faith/spiritual issue? Thank you!

Just wanted to say that you left out the part where I specifically said that I do NOT believe this to be true and I am NOT saying this is the case...this is something that a friend of mine happens to be struggling with so I was just saying it as an example

Thank you both for your comments, I appreciate them very much. I edited above and added this...I think this explains my thought process somewhat...what would you think in a case such as this?

I don't even know if I am going to be able to explain what I am thinking...but I am going to try because this is so hard for me to comprehend from a spiritual perspective. What is faith? I have horrible anxiety and I worry about everyone all of the time, I am always anxious and want to be able to make sure that everyone is always okay...I wear myself out mentally, emotionally and physically. I know that I live out of fear and not faith and I DO NOT want to live this way, I am miserable living this way. I do trust Heavenly Father completely...however...you know how "they" always say "do what you can and Heavenly Father will do there rest? Well I overwhelm myself by doing absolutely EVERYTHING I can!! I drive my teenagers anywhere that seems even remotely scary for their friends to take them, I watch my younger children like an absolute hawk, I feel like I have to be 50 steps ahead of everyone all of the time. BUT as my children are getting older I realize that I have to let them go...I have to let them grow and learn...so if they are asked to go with one of their friends and they need to drive on the freeway for example...do I drive them (because I CAN take them and I am always willing to) OR do I allow them to go with their friends and have faith that Heavenly Father will protect them? For example...in an instance where a mom contracts the zika virus during pregnancy...some baby are born with birth defects and some babies are not born with birth defects. In these instances can we have faith that exactly what was "meant to happen" from a spiritual perspective happened? Can we have faith in Heavenly Father in these cases? Should we have faith and still get pregnant if we know that we can very likely be exposed to the pika virus and that it could potentially harm the baby? Or should we not get pregnant to avoid anything potentially harming the baby? What does it mean to have faith in these cases? What would our Heavenly Father have us do? Does any of this make any sense? It is so hard to explain how I feel...are we punished by Heavenly Father by not doing enough? Will He protect us if we are meant to be protected? How do we live with faith and not with fear?