SBLACKMD

Welcome Brother. I will make this short as from what I read your conversion is assured and that will open many doors for your understanding one of which includes the gift of the Holy Ghost which will undoubtedly give more meaning and interest to "all scripture" as you study and grow closer to Christ. Let me suggest this. Don't be concerned or feel you are not fully Christian because you have a less enthusiastic desire to read and study the Bible at this time as opposed to the BOM. Start by using the bible only as a reference to strengthen your BOM studies. Read and study the cross references to the bible that support the doctrines and truths you have come to love in the BOM. In this way, you will come to know that the Bible also supports these truths. As you learn that you may find that Bible study becomes a less tedious part of your overall efforts at examining the totality of the scriptures. One last bit of advice. Don't let your feelings about Bible study be a part of your reasoning for delaying or taking a longer time in making your Baptism decision. Be Baptized! Become a member of the Lord's Church. Receive the Holy Ghost. Keep the commandments so that you may strengthen yourself in the Lord and open your understanding in your scripture studies. Pray always. Give service to your fellow man! Love them and your Heavenly Father. Utilize the atonement of Christ when necessary and expect to make mistakes. Study Christ's examples of how to live. Love yourself too and know that your Heavenly Parents love you as well. Brother I don't even know you, and I love you. I can't begin to explain what treasures you will find and what joy awaits you in the Gospel. Get here as soon as you can manage it... All my Best!

I seriously understand your anxiety over this. All I can offer is that I know of no place where there is any suggestion in the scriptures or through new revelation or the writings of any modern day prophet or apostle that indicates that there will be any dating or searching and subsequent sealing of any sealed/married man in the celestial kingdom to any other woman that wasn't first sealed here by that person or by proxy. In short I personally do not believe you will have to sit in your new celestial home right down the street from our heavenly parents, full of tension and anxiety, while you husband goes on a celestial date. That doesn't sound much like heaven to me. But lets say I'm completely wrong. If I am wrong then there is something that you and I don't understand yet. If it is the case that somehow your husband will be given or assigned other celestial partners then I would guarantee you that it will only happen with your complete support, love and understanding. I seriously feel that God loves you and will not create a celestial circumstance that causes you pain. I do not speak for the church. I am not even close to being a General Authority. But I do speak as someone who studies scripture and the words of our leaders, who tries to live a Christ-like life and has a Temple recommend in his pocket. I hope this helped.

"I don't get this at all. Only intelligent Mormon women have large families? I don't see the corollation there. It would seem that smarter women would have fewer children to use up the ever declining natural resources of the earth before we all begin killing each other for a loaf of bread. (not that this will happen in our lifetimes, but if we don't curb our breeding, it will happen.)" I think we should be cautious in employing any strategy that doesn't comply with "Be fruitful and multiply" until that commandment is rescinded or we get new instruction that explicitly over rides it. There are many groups who will continue to have 10-11 children who may not share our propensity for civility. In a democracy the voting power of a group like this could structurally change a country into atmospheric anarchy or even worse, a theocracy. Always, let's make plans that follow Heavenly Father's known instructions.