seriousneedofhelp

i was sent home from my mission after 6 months due to health reasons. I had a lot of mixed emotions about it because I felt so sure that I was supposed to be out there, then when I got home I felt like I really needed to stay and attend BYU, which was never apart of my original plan. So I moved to Provo. Since being up here, I have struggled with keeping a relationship with Him because I have felt a lot of resentment, frustration, sadness, confusion, and many more feelings. I have a hard time reading scriptures, praying, reading my partriarchal blesings, attending the temple, etc. I go to church every week and share my thoughts because I have a testimony. BUT I think a lot of my issues come from me feeling like I disappointed God. Since being up here, I have never really struggled with sexual sin. But its ROUGH here in Provo. I definitely went a little far, touching sacred places (with clothes). I repented to my bishop once, then a month later I relapsed. I have a new bishop now. But when I repented the first time, my bishop asked me a bunch of uncomfortable questions. I didn't have any punishments, and he just told me to figure it out with God, but I was very brief about describing what had happened even though he asked. I get really uncomfortable when asked those prying questions. Is that something I need to swallow my pride for? I love the gospel, and KNOW my Savior can help me, I just have a fear of discomfort and fear of being judged & those are both definitely going on in the bishops office lol. I have since stopped sinning, and I am working on consistently reading and praynig and putting myself within the realm of the Spirit. Basically the question is... if EVERY time I have repented to the bishop, he told me to work it out with God, if I have forsaken the sin and am striving to do better do I need to still repent (in detail) to the bishop? Is it possible to be forgiven of sexual sins by yourself? What is the point of going to your bishop? I dont want to mock God, I don't want to justify my sins. But to be honest, I don't think I can take embarrassing myself in front of my new bishop, when it isn't who I am anymore.