I know you’ll never see this this string was long ago, but I just wanted to say that you are a wonderful child of God. He loves you more than you can ever imagine. When relationships go sour, sometimes we often downgrade ourselves and feel like we are failures, while we may have failed, we are not failures. I empathize so much with the things you’ve said, and have the strongest feeling that one day either here on earth or later in heaven, God will dry all our tears and fill us with love, and we will be among countless others, that love us to the depths of our souls , I’d write much more but I just wanted to say what I’ve said