yeah, of course I know it's about agency. And yeah, I do mean angry at the system that lets an immature 18 year old make a decision with eternal consequences. I"m talking about myself, not a daughter. Because now I do feel damned if I do and damned if I don't. I'm probably too angry to be on a forum. The counselor at LDS Family services told me to read the Little Engine that Could. Seriously - that was my assignment. Okay. So yeah, find another counselor obviously. Anyway, we've been married 25 years, 6 kids - 4 left at home, not fair to them, I know. But I'm to the point where I just feel like sorry everyone but I'm not gonna be a martyr and that's what it would take to keep this going. I threatened my husband before so he finally went to a session of marriage counseling (not with the engine guy) and then said that was stupid and he won't go back. So today I told him we are separating for a while and he said I"m being assinine and ridiculous and out of touch with reality. I know I can't get him to move out so I'm looking for my own apt. And tomorrow I'm taking money out of the bank and hiding it. I feel like to heck with eternal stuff - I just don't care anymore. I don't have a question. I can't even think of one. I guess I just wanted someone to talk to about stuff. And yes, I've talked to my bishop. My husband assures him I'm just overreacting and depressed and that everything is just fine.
