RegretfulGuy

I definitely believe evolution is real. The only thing I'm unsure of is if we evolved from monkeys.

A long time ago I posted here claiming that I was addicted to porn. But now, I don't think I really was. I think I looked at it in bursts...like a couple nights in a row once every few months or more. I haven't looked at porn since I've posted back then either. Do you think I still need to see the bishop?

Well, I think I'm chickening out of telling the Bishop...Any ideas?

Thanks for the posts guys! I will look at the links some of you posted soon... I didn't make it to church on Sunday, and I will talk to my Bishop if my jaw doesn't hurt too much... I haven't done anything since posting here. I had a dream, and for some reason there were 3 naked women, but in my dream, I managed to only look at their heads. It was weird, but I kind of felt accomplished lol... I may tell my parents before College. I will at least wait a few months from now, so it's just me and the parents at home. (Sibling leaving to College soon). I don't want my sibling to know about this. And unfortanately, Internet Filters can't stop me. I've had them installed before (parents did), and I managed to get past it, and none are installed now. Plus, I've got my portable devices with Internet access that wouldn't be affected by a filter.

Unfortunately I just remembered I might not make it to church Sunday. I'm getting my wisdom teeth a couple days before, so I'm not sure if I'll be up to it. Puff, for me, it's probably a mixture of loneliness, depression, and maybe a little anxiety. I already take some medicine to help with depression and anxiety. I've also done it out of boredom...I guess I should keep myself busy. Oh and one more thing...I've done that cyber sex crap. It wasn't serious though. It's actually what lead me to porn. It was some dumb online game that I was introduced to when I was still in middle school. I went on it the summer between middle and high school, and I guess someone wanted to do that. I probably googled to find out what it was or something. I'm sure I must have said no at first, but maybe when I was asked again I though why not. When I did this "cyber" thing, it literally only was text. I was always fully clothed, and I never touched myself. There were no pictures involved and no video or webcam or whatever. Just typing junk like, "I kiss you" and other immature and foolish nonsense. Do you guys think that's a serious problem? I haven't done it since then and I've tried to repent(not sure if I was forgiven). Do you think that could prevent a mission at 19? I for one think the porn and masturbation is more serious since it wasn't serious cyber sex. Thanks so much for the help guys. I'm glad I posted when I did. I probably would've not even considered seeing the bishop about it after these past few days. God bless, and thanks. I'll certainly keep you updated!

Thanks a ton for all of the advice! About the computer, mine is in the kitchen...so it's public. I also only have 3 hours to use it, and at specific times of the day. Unfortunately I've got an iPod and other portable devices capable of viewing video and pictures. Some can access the internet. And I find myself similar to you in a few ways Sarik.(And thanks for the long and thoughtful post!) Especially the "Might as well enjoy the entire night. Going to hate myself in the morning." I've thought the same thing, but usually didn't make it past 10 minutes... Right now I feel as if I never could have looked at porn. It's like I'm in denial. I feel like I'll never do it again, but I've felt the same before. Anyways, I probably shouldn't put off confession. I think I'll ask my bishop about confidentiality of confession sometime when we're relatively alone on Sunday. I always see him since the Priests meet in the Bishop's office. Thanks for helping motivate me guys, I never thought I'd get this much help!

Welcome Michael. About your crosswords, I urge you not to abandon God and go with the World. While I myself am LDS, I still think it's much better to at least practice your faith in Jesus than to just abandon him. And of course, take your time. And pray. Ask and you shall receive. Good luck in your search for God.

Well I just don't know how to ask if he'll tell beforehand...I'd rather not make an appointment, cause my parents would definitely find out about it. Next time there is Baptisms for the dead, or I'm getting a yearly checkup or something I should probably confess...I guess I'll ask if he'll tell my parents before saying anything though. I used to tell myself I would confess when in College, but then I'd probably run late on going on a mission, and well, better now than later I suppose. If I tell my parents, I'd tell them while I was in College...(I have time for a year before my mission call). Thanks guys. I'll keep you updated, and I thank you so much for the support and advice.

Get a firewall and virus protector for her. I suggest Kaspersky Internet Security. Of course change passwords, and if you can't stop him from getting new ones, he likely put a keylogger on there. (Logs literally every key pushed, some even say what site and such). In that case if you can't remove or detect a keylogger, reformat computer.

Well...I haven't told anyone about it. If I tell my parents, they'll never trust me again, or think the same of me... If I tell the bishop, he'd tell my parents. I suck at scripture study. Barely ever read scriptures unless I'm in Seminary or Church. I pray everyday, usually sincerely. Unfortanately, I'm not sure how to get this out of my life...I suppose to keep the consequences in mind. And to remember how I feel after I do that each time. Thanks for the replies. :)

Hello all...I've been wanting to join this forum for a while and for a specific reason. First off, I was born into a good Mormon family, and it still is good. I got baptized at 8, got arronic priesthood at 12, and now I am 16...I want to go on a mission, I can't picture what my life would become if I didn't, but I have a problem... I've gotten addicted to...porn. It started out with a small temptation and led to this...Last night I even masturbated to it...I've tried to stop many times, and I was sober for months but then summer vacation came...A time of boredom and loneliness. I've done it again. A few times this summer. Not daily, maybe ever other 2 weeks, but it's becoming more frequent. This is a serious problem I want to get through. Can I go on a mission at age 19 if I repent? Please give me some advice...Thanks.