Daenvgiell, I remember discussing some time ago that you sounded a bit depressed. If that is still happening, I am wondering if it might be contributing to not feeling the Spirit to your satisfaction.
It is actually hard to feel all alone, even when you are on the other side of Australia from home, when there are so many other people around you. Being as pretty and talented as you are, I imagine there are many there at college who would readily befriend you. Feeling alienated is another matter, and from personal experience, I think this can be directly tied either to a decidedly unfriendly environment or to depression.
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