You just break my heart! Please, above all JUST TRUST GOD! HE WILL ALWAYS PROVIDE ANGELS TO HELP THOSE WHO LOVE HIM. Yes, many of us are going hand to mouth and just making it. Yet, we are the fortunate ones...really. Don't dwell on the worries of tomorrow because it may not come. I suppose cancer helps you put things in priority. Only consider those things that you as a human can control. you will find it isn't much! The rest you MUST rely on GOD. I will be praying for comfort and wisdom for you and your family. God will meet your needs, not necessarily our wants. Just do what you can in the day and rest in the Lord. Love your family, share your feelings...talk about things that matter. The children will know your stressed and feel powerless. Show them where to gain strength. Don't have a spirit of fear. Its energy wasted. You don't gain one minute of peace by worrying. honest! wishing you peace