I know a lot of where you are coming from, "yoyoteacher." I was officially a "member" for twelve years (baptized back in 2001), but was inactive for much of that time. I had some personal crises with depression, etc., on my way to pursuing priesthood ordination back in 2012. It was awful. I wound up having my name removed from the records of the Church, but I never completely lost my testimony. Every time I attend a Sacrament Meeting (only a few times over the past couple of years), it always feels like I'm where I'm supposed to be. I really feel like the Spirit confirmed that this past Sunday. I'm actually talking to the missionaries in my area now, who are in turn going to talk to the Bishop, about my (hopeful) reinstatement process. I've heard two sides: one that I have to be rebaptized, and the other side that I don't. I'm going with the former, simply because to my understanding, when one has their name removed from the Church's records, it effectively cancels one's ordinances as well. Good luck to you! Even if you've been inactive for a long time, at least you're still a member! :)