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My friend is convinced that she need a guy in her life. She goes on about it then talks about how only Christ can fill the hole. But then she's back to wanting a BF! Here's a letter she sent... Ok. So I was talking to this guy online last night who I RP with on this site I go to and he gave me the url to his myspace. I told him myspace was gay but I checked it out anyway. First: Do you know how visual guys are? I'm not talking about just simply noticing that you have big boobs or anything like that. Do you know what it does to them to see the porn online and on billboards nowadays?? It makes them want to masterbate and makes them lose respect with girls. They are VERY visual. Anyway, so this guy is really nice and very easy to talk to and I like joking around with him but when I click on his myspace url and scroll down I see him talking about himself adn stuff he likes, blah, blah, blah. Typical myspace stuff and then I see this picture he was of a Victoria's Secret model and a paragraph of him talking about it and how he loves this modeling show. I felt sick and clicked off the link right away feeling hurt, slightly offended and sad. So soon after that I stopped talking to him adn got offline feeling sad and obviously not able to think the same about him because he is a worldly guy. So I was already discouraged about that and of course started thinking about how hard it is for guy's to stay pure of mind. Did you know that a guy can glance at a picture for 2 seconds and remember it for 2 years?? And with the pictures online nowadays, they don't WANT to forget stuff like that. (If you don't think all guys are like this or are curious about what goes on in their heads, read the book, "Every young man's Battle.") Anyway, today I got up and went to church, still feeling slightly sad about what I saw last night and even beginning to wonder if my future husband is staying pure for me or if I will ever meet a man who is not worldly in the mind or will TRY for me and God to stay pure. It's so exaughsting to think about because the guys at my church become very forward and truthful about their desires when asked about it in Sunday school which makes me like, Oh look. Even the Christians can't stay pure. So I'm going to church, thinking about all of this, lah, lah, lah. And when we get to church my mom left Matt adn I in the car to label all of his camp stuff because we forgot to and I remembered how the other day when dad was showing us a movie clip on the internet there was a really nasty ad of a 3/4 naked woman and my dad hadn't tried to cover it up at all and when I had glanced back at matt to see if he was looking, THAT'S when he had looked away. I know that my brother is jut now becoming a teenager so he's having to deal with new emotions and his friends are probably talking about.... different things and so I worry about him, because you never know how he will learn to deal with these things and Matt isn't one to talk about his emotions AT ALL. So while we were labeling stuff, the previous nights thoughts still playing in my mind I just kind decided to ask Matt something so I started out asking him, "Hey, is it ok if I ask you something? It may be kind of awkward.." and he looked at me and said, "Yeah. Sure." so I pause and then say, "You know how when dad shows us video's on break.com and there's sometimes those nasty ad's? Is it hard for you to look away from those?" I could tell he was caught of gaurd and he started looking really embaressed so I added, "Don't be embarressed. It's hard for alot of guys." so he nodded, starting to blush and said, "Yeah. Sometimes." I nodded and let it drop. It's SO HARD to have a younger brother and know what he's going through even though I'm a girl. Alot of sisters don't have to deal with that but God gave me this knowledge that now seems like a burden. In church, we headed in and during worship i really wanted to just breka down in cry. Cry for my brother, who I'm scared will get sucked into this porno trap, because I don't know how to save him. Cry for Garrett (that guy) and all the other young teens who don't know how to deal with these emotions and don't have a God to turn to for comfort and WISDOM. And cry for me. I've always felt so lonely, longing for a guy to care for me and now I feel that that will never happen. Because I will never date a worldly man and I feel that I won't ever have someone there to save me because they will still need to save themselves. I'm not being stupid so please don't roll your eyes at me like you usually do and tell me that I don't need a guy. The end. I'm not sure how important purity is stressed in your religion or in your life but when it comes to dating, that is the key ingredient. I know you don't have crushes often so that's why I feel like I tell you this stuff but you don't understand. It's a weight on my shoulders! I feel lonely and it's not stupid or a passing thing. Part of the curse that Eve gave us was that our desire would be given over to our husband (Genesis 3, or 4 I think) and so what's so horrible about that is that we try and get guys to fill our passions and that empty hole but only God can. There's my paragraph. I'm sorry if I offended you at all but I'm hurting. What do I tell her? I've told her several times that the whole guy thing is stuiped....she won't listen! Here was my responce. I'm not offended. I'm sad for you! I mean like it's hard to hear you hurting so bad. I am starting to understand the way you feel, it's hard to find pure guys. (BTW, purity is stressed BIG TIME in our church...) But when it darkens your mind think....they can get away. It's hard but can be done! And you can help! Show them how to respect you and maybe they'll respect others like they do you. Leave it to God, someday you will find someone! :) Maybe we'll find some one together... I really am starting to understand tho, with a key male model missing in my life my thoughts often turn to having some one... It's hard. Keep reading your scriptures and pray. You know what! Let's find a scripture for the both of us to memorize! The when we feel this way we can think of it. :) Good enough?

-Twilight -Eragon/ Eldist -The Moor Child

Ahhh yes, I have problems with dairy.Soy is best, although you do have to get used to it. Try frozen grapes, and other frozen fruits. Tastes like ice cream. There's also shakes...

I'm sorry. If you ever wanna talk PM me. :) Have you heard of Annie's Hope? I just got back from their camp... Rebel, There are times when I too cant go to church. When there is a primary function, I cant do it. My kids were young when I was divorced, and I find it difficult to get through it. I also have to be really careful around big family holidays. I usually choose to work overtime on those days to keep me busy. Last thanksgiving my Biship brought over a bunch of turkey after the ward event that I didnt attend - I was floored! It was very nice! bottom line ... do what you have to to get through it, be as busy as you can. Yeah, I try that. But more often I wind up writting poems and such...

I'm sorry. If you ever wanna talk PM me. :) Have you heard of Annie's Hope? I just got back from their camp...

It's hard. I wanna go...I wanna be normal But I hate crying in front of people You ARE normal...and crying is ok. That's just it..I'm not. I don't have a dad, I don't have someone to hold hands with and brag about...My Best Friend is Missing. I hate to Cry! It hurts and is draining... Sometimes I feel like there's a giant hole in my chest that throbs at the mention of Dad. It feels like I'm suffocating. Crying makes it worse... Forgetting about the pain is easyer. So, you're saying that my kids are not normal either because they don't have a dad? It's NORMAL to feel the way you feel...and crying lets the pain out. I ment no offence! Sorry! *feels stuiped* I don't know anymore.....I mean it's like the world's upside down I just want to forget. Close the hole

It's hard. I wanna go...I wanna be normal But I hate crying in front of people You ARE normal...and crying is ok. That's just it..I'm not. I don't have a dad, I don't have someone to hold hands with and brag about...My Best Friend is Missing. I hate to Cry! It hurts and is draining... Sometimes I feel like there's a giant hole in my chest that throbs at the mention of Dad. It feels like I'm suffocating. Crying makes it worse... Forgetting about the pain is easyer.

It's hard.I wanna go...I wanna be normal But I hate crying in front of people

I am so torn. My father is no longer here, I feel like I can go to church and be fine but am afraid... I don't wanna cry.

Gah....I hate Monday....

*feels better* Good. I love my animals and would not be looking forward to heaven without them... I have 8 animals, close to each other in age so I had been wondering.... Hate ta bust yer bubble...but...meat was never supposed to be food...doubt it will be in Heaven, specially since the lion and the lamb will be buds in the millenial kingdom. Better get used to boca burgers! Boca Burger! I like that word....

Thank you so much! Yes please Literature not litature.. Sorry just picking..heh Other then that I have no suggestions...I don't read fiction books. Yeah, my spelling ######... I don't know why..... It bothers me tho... Seems like something I would like to read I will probably post it at that site, I'd love some feedback on my other stuff if you wanna. :) Thanks for reading that!

Arabic? So, I'm confused. Are these books teaching you how to speak Arabic? Its a computer programme the idea is it teaches you the language as close to how you would learn your own native language (in my case Northern English, yours American English) - if you type Rosetta Stone into ebay you can get the company's site which will let you try out the programme.. I also got some books out of the library which are learn Arabic Script for beginners. But I do want Ellie if possible to have a grounding in Latin and another European Language even if she isn't very good. Now need to start petitioning the Lord to send us a missionary that speaks Arabic lol Charley LOL That sounds fun. For awhile I was learning Elvish

Somthing I've always wondered...were do animals go? I mean, their family....

high: CAMP IN ANOTHER WEEK!!!! YAY!!!! low: ycl training left me tired *yawn* Ha-ha...I get to go to camp Tommorow :)

High: Camp Tommorow! Low: Sooooo much to do....

If you are serious about getting your work published - I suggest you find a reading group for writers trying to get published. They will work with you to insure your manuscripts are formatted correctly - publisher will not look at any manuscript not formatted correctly. And they will offer advice associated with your writing style and target audience. Many groups have published authors that donate their time to help others. The Traveler That would be so cool! My friend has somthing like that, I'm gonna ask about it. What did you think?

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I love reading! I am writting my own book, here's the preveiw. Lilly is the queen of Isildon and things are confusing. She must wed the king of Queshek in order to form an allience to stop a war and can't seem to find "The one." But that changes when she meets the charming Lord Mason, he's all the things she's wanted and more. But a few days before the wedding she and her friend and maid, Katalina, are kidnapped by bandits. Together they enter a whole new world, and this world offers the excitement both have been craving. But is it too much? Lilly soon finds that maybe Lord Mason isn't the right one when she meets Colton. Third in line to leader, Jezzera, he is just as stubborn as she is. Annoying but charming at the same time. Katalina too faces temptation in the form of a bandit. Ramoth Black. Second in line and compleatly oppesite of her personality. And things get even stickyir when Katalina and Lilly start to form a bond with the band. Can these two worlds come together? ©2007 ~beautyfulgrace For more of my stuff see www.beautyfulgrace.deviantart.com

I am bored....

have your spent a lot of time in Iraq our branch president has been there for a lot of time in the last year - its been a traumatic experience for a lot of people in our area right now. Its funny I grew up around war stories but I guess I am getting to experience a little of what my Grandparents and Great Aunts and Uncles went through. We are currently trying out the Arabic module with my daughter - have just started. After what you have said I think I will invest in a French Module as there is a lady that runs a class here from the age of 5 my French is very basic but did manage to have a conversation with a lady at a campsite this week surprised me because I thought I had forgotten it all Charley Arabic? So, I'm confused. Are these books teaching you how to speak Arabic?

Yeah.Can you get ahold of the manager of the company he works for?

your all cool!