youcannotcontainme

I'm an 26 year old, LDS divorcee whose wife had an affair. The divorce was final in Feb. Not long after, I started dating this wonderful LDS girl and things felt amazing. I felt confident in my position with the Lord, with my past divorce, with my emotional state, with decisions I had made, and with the progress I had with this young lady and we quickly started talking about marriage. I felt good about all of this. Then I suddenly, I hit a wall out of no where and question everything. There isn't one life decision that I don't question now or have anxiety over. My bishop encourages me to have an eternal perspective, and implies I have no reason to not move forward with this wonderful young lady. But stops just keep presenting themselves to me, that originally weren't there, or I at least I didn't notice. Things like pain from my past relationship overwhelming me, past pornography addictions flaring up, unsure of my own position in God's eyes and depression flaring. I constantly question if she is who I need to move forward with, and question even more if I'm someone who can handle being married again. Currently, Im seeing a psychiatrist, my bishop and doing some addiction recovery work and taking some anti depressants, but I continue to struggle with making any kind of decisions and am terrified of making life decisions right now. Any advice would be very welcomed right now. Thank you.