findinghope Posted March 12, 2009 Report Posted March 12, 2009 (edited) Hello forum,I saw that Innergold posted on this forum recently. I went through that program over 3 years ago and have found sobriety in pornography addiction. For those addicts out there or those who know addicts, there is hope and help. For those addicts in denial, hopefully you will admit it and get help :) I am here to say that any out there with questions or want some confidential and honest feedback, just ask me. I have no shame in admitting my addiction now or discussing recovery. I know that recovery is possible. I am proof. I went years with occasional relapses in my pornography addiction thinking I could just stop with more faith, more scriptures, more Temple, etc... I spent a year working in the Temple. I have had various church callings etc... I went through Bishop after Bishop trying to "beat" this thing. I prayed almost every day for help. My sweet wife prayed with me. I didn't binge every day. It was on business trips and usually every 2-6 months I would relapse. Pretty common amongst LDS men actually. I was so confused and felt crummy every time I slipped. I hated myself for a while. My wife and I would weep together becuase of this beast that plagued me. It was like I was outside looking in when I relapsed. What I learned is that this is pretty common amongst LDS men. Innergold Counseling helped me understand my addiction and gave me the tools to find sobriety. If ANYONE has this addiction or questions for me...feel free to ask. I am doing great. My wife and I are happy as ever. I have truly given my addiction to the Lord finally in admitting I am nothing alone and cannot do this on my own. I needed counseling, I needed my wife, and I needed to truly humble myself before the Savior. I use what I learned through Innergold to stay sober every day now. Nephi stated "O Lord, wilt though redeem my soul? Wilt though deliver me out of the hands of mine enemies? Wilt though make me that I may shake at the very appearance of sin? May the gates of Hell be shut continually before me, becuase that my heart is broken and my spirit is contrite? O Lord, wilt though not shut the gates of thy righteousness before me, that I may walk in the low valley, that I may be strict in the plain road." 2ndNephi 4: 31-32.Well, I am here to help those who feel the gates of righteousness shut before them. I am here to answer questions that may lead people through that low valley of humility learn to be strict in the plain road. Edited March 12, 2009 by findinghope Quote
Giant_Son Posted March 13, 2009 Report Posted March 13, 2009 Congratulations, Hope. Keep up the good fight! Quote
Guest tomk Posted March 13, 2009 Report Posted March 13, 2009 Way to go. I've been struggling with masturbation and pornography for over 25 years now. Never more that 3 months of abstinence since I began working the 12 steps. Tom Quote
Maya Posted March 13, 2009 Report Posted March 13, 2009 Hi finding hope... welcome... tjhere really IS hope to theose who are willing to obey! Thumbs up for you! Quote
findinghope Posted March 13, 2009 Author Report Posted March 13, 2009 Thanks! For a lot of addicts out there in the LDS community, there are many who so desperately want to obey but find themselves lost in the occasional relapse or in complete free fall. So many hide their issues and keep things secret for way too long in fear that the shame and retribution will be too great. Yes, there is justice and yes ones spouse and or others who are effected may be down right angry at first. Point is that not seeking help will be disastrous beyond any anger or shame. God is good and is so merciful to those who seek help. Christ died for us after all. He died for ALL sins, pains, etc... We shouldn't "beat" ourselves up for our weaknesses, but rather beat ourselves up for not doing anything about it. For those who feel the shame and or anger is not worth it...trust me when I say it is very much worth it. Getting help is proof to God that we are willing to do his will. Nothing wrong with that. Isn't is all about making our weaknesses strengths? Quote
Lost_one Posted March 13, 2009 Report Posted March 13, 2009 Hi there, As a fellow Porn Addict, i know where your coming from. I am more or less at the beginning of my journey right now. I threw away my porn collection about 7 years ago, But still cant get away from it. I relapse pretty much on a daily basis. I have just started the churches 12 step program and im seeing things in a new light. I have a very long way to go still, But i know with Gods help and the support of my fellow saints, i will get there. John Quote
RavinMaven Posted March 14, 2009 Report Posted March 14, 2009 My hat is off to you! I am sure that you will have a positive effect on many people here. Quote
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