Still_Small_Voice Posted December 25, 2011 Report Share Posted December 25, 2011 I've used to pray for a narcissist I knew. I prayed that the LORD would humble him. I do not know if the LORD answered my prayer or if he eventually had to face what seeds he had sown by his actions. Looking back I wish I would have prayed for his eyes to be opened so he could see what his actions were doing and how he would be accountable for his actions before the LORD. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
svm8yrsn2m Posted April 13, 2012 Report Share Posted April 13, 2012 Thank you for you informative statement. I am in ptsd trying just to get the divorce filing done. Needed strength to carry on. Goes against my faith. Second marriage. Gone down the tubes. Same reason. Getting counseling from battered shelter. 8 years of emotional, sexual, financial, threats, intimidation, isolation, minimizing, humiliation, and economic terror. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
svm8yrsn2m Posted April 13, 2012 Report Share Posted April 13, 2012 I am a disciple of Christ. I have applied every scripture I find and most of all forgiveness to the situation all to no avail until I am in a precarious position, again, and struggling to survive the abuses. No matter how kind and loving we are it is of no value to them and as pearls cast before swine! This makes me feel such a failure. I was told by the spirit not to fail at this marriage and gave it my all. My recent thought was that "he" has failed and that I have not. I have been driven to file for divorce as of yesterday. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
svm8yrsn2m Posted April 13, 2012 Report Share Posted April 13, 2012 (edited) I have loved him and will continue to do so as a disciple of Christ. But I do not "romantically love" nor condone his ill behaviors any longer. Yesterday I told him that I have now "removed" my love from him because he has stated that he hates himself and wants to kill himself. He put porn on my website and minimized it to our clergy. If he hates he cannot love. Therefore he does not love me. Therefore my loving him is a waste of time in that our relationship is over. I spent all this time thinking he loved m e and was devastated to learn otherwise. He has made kill statements before and held a gun to his head. I had him institutionalized. It only lasted 10 days and he was out and up to his stuff again. That was 6 long years ago! There has been so much "stuff!" Easter weekend he made more kill statements and I was off to the abuse shelter for four days until he started abusing my pet. He suckered me home to fix the situation and felt so victorious! I am in a danger zone and I know it so I filed for divorce yesterday. I spent the night locked in the bedroom and would not let him in nor come out. I hope legal services will help me through this because I am in ptsd. Edited April 13, 2012 by Bootstrap_Dove spelling correction and add to statement Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
svm8yrsn2m Posted April 13, 2012 Report Share Posted April 13, 2012 (edited) Yes, it is like a train wreck but worse. It is the wreckage of a soul which is of great worth in the eyes of our Heavenly Father. Surely he grieves. We grieve that our efforts and unconditional love have been thrust in our faces. Remember Enoch grieving in eternity for the lost souls. This is how all the followers of Christ feel. I am sick to my stomach over my situation and have lots of health problems from trying to carry the burden too far, even though I have cast it on the Lord many times. But now it is strictly between the Lord and him. I am out of the picture, moving as quickly as possible to change my life and seek renewal. Edited April 13, 2012 by Bootstrap_Dove spelling Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
svm8yrsn2m Posted April 13, 2012 Report Share Posted April 13, 2012 You bail out of the relationship. Don't try to have a heart to heart because he regards you as a cardboard person, only someone to manipulate. He is bragging about his manipulative omnipotent powers. He is into grandness! HIS grandness! He says he is on the Lord's side, but not. He only uses that to manipulate the true followers of Christ. This makes him feel even more magnificent! If you have him read President Kimball's "Miracle of Forgiveness," he will in no doubt be wroth and want to tear the book apart! That is what happened yesterday with my husband. He is a narcissist. I am exiting the marriage ASAP! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Still_Small_Voice Posted April 15, 2012 Report Share Posted April 15, 2012 Best wishes to you Bootstrap_Dove. I cannot imagine what you are going thru. Marry the wrong person and your life can become a living nightmare. I will offer a prayer for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
svm8yrsn2m Posted April 16, 2012 Report Share Posted April 16, 2012 And I have loved and still do love this man. I know he is really struggling, but he slips further and further away. Better to pray for both of us. I know not where to turn but to the Lord. I am alone and 59. I have a pet collie, so I guess you could say I have one dependent! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bcguy Posted April 21, 2012 Report Share Posted April 21, 2012 Find a really professional in media "**** Clark is one example" that is a role model. Ask him, if he wants recognition, be like xxxx and you will make more friends then enemies. Sad but true, I like my 4x4 I own, unfortunately there is a thread in the x4x forum called "ultimate narcissist thread". Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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