godisabullet

Dear other posters to this thread, I mistook MissHalfway's join date to be the thread post date and I didn't realize that the thread was still active. I have been soaking in a lot of history lately and drawing a lot of parallels between what is happening in the middle east. Along with the suicidal distraught I was feeling yesterday, yeah, it was a cry for help, I did some barking where I thought I would be heard. Thank you to all repliers for not pandering to that issue and taking me to task on my knowledge of history. James

KristofferUmfrey, Thank you for reply. I first would like to apologize for attacking the Mormon belief system. That is something that I thought would never do and I guess that I would probably only do anonymously. You might accept it as my reacting to the disenfranchisement from larger society I feel as an atheist . I would like to explain that a bit further, but first I would like ensure that I won't be doing anything crazy and I will be seeking help in addressing how such notions come to dominate my thinking. I am thankful there was this forum to post to and that someone replied to my "tirade" (aptly put) in the context of real person. On most days, I am in every way behind the idea that people need to be accepted as individuals. Even if that individuality leads them to being part of a larger group. Then to the other extreme I have days like yesterday when bit of bad news hits and I get destructive. Not physically but most of the time repressing feeling like being physically destructive. In retrospect, venting on your forum was me behaving in a destructive way so I didn't have to repress that feeling. I am pretty sure I was reacting in an actually non-destructive way to feeling like being destructive. I guess I should thank you for the therapy. Thank you. I would like to offer my perspective of what it is to be an atheist with integrity. I often think of going to church as a panacea for loneliness and a way to be around nice people. But then I think about the standard question I am sure I will encounter; do I accept Jesus as my saviour. The honest answer would be; no. What then? I simply don't know that to be reality. And so it goes. I don't countermand what other people accept as reality, usually, yesterday's post to this forum is an almost singular exception, so why should I be judged indifferent to what is right for only accepting what I know to be reality as reality? Anyhow, thanks again and the best of everything to you, James

So I'm sure that as believers in magic stories and what ever make believe you people believe in, you are totally unaware of the shape the world is really in. It was belief exactly like yours that God so favored the farmers of the mid-western United States that the "rain would follow the plow." Even though they didn't know what the weather conditions where for any extended period of time in what turned into the dust bowl. You sit in all your self-anointed piety in a land that never in any sense of the word "rightfully" belonged to the white man. Even still to this day the people that "own" the United States soak the hands of those live here with the blood of innocent people. You think you understand righteousness? Your mythology tells you what you want to believe with enough strictness tossed in to make it believable. Take a good hard look at history and how Israel was "given back to the Jews." Then look at how what is supposed to be the holy land is a foothold for western power. You think this world is worth living in? I'm sure you will find great solace in the fact that you are alive and a disbeliever like myself makes it all come to a bloody end for myself.