JanP

Thankyou all for your help. Since he was a child, my hubby has not wanted anyone to touch him or he touch them. I guess he pushed himself to change when we were first married and then couldn't keep doing it. He is a good man, I just miss the personal touch. Yes, depression is no fun. I think the hardest part is learning to love myself. I do care about others and pray everyday that I can be of service to someone. I don't think a day goes by that I don't spend an hour or two in helping a friend or neighbor. I just get lonely and perhaps have become too dependant on my hubby's mood.

I am feeling so hurt. My parents, and siblings have abused, and abandoned me. My grown children are angry with me. My husband is distant and more of a part-time roommate than anything. I have had chronic depression all my life and major depression issues all my life also. I feel that there is no one on this earth who loves me and I have no close ties with deceased people. I also have chronic fatigue. I am active in the church, temple worthy (tho I have been too depressed to go and get a temple recommend) and love Heavenly Father. Tho it seems hard to hear him. My fault not His. My husband has moved us far away from his loving relatives. He is my biggest upset right now. He is a very quiet man and hasn't hugged, kissed or given me any affection or compliments for at least 10 years. He won't be sealed to me in the temple and although he goes to church, he isn't passionate about it and won't pray, read scriptures or do anything else church wise. He very much isolates himself from me and loves to be a loner. I need to go and see a therapist but the only LDS one is 40 minutes away. Which is no excuse but I struggle with going. I truly fear dying - I think there will be no one in heaven that wants to be with me. I wish I could understand why Heavenly Father gave me these challenges. I wish I knew what personality I really am. I feel like I don't have any talents or gifts. Most of this has been going on for 50 years. Been married 2nd time for 20. I am on antidepressants and the super sadness is gone, but I still feel tired, and sad. I'm not sure that life will be any better in the next life. And I don't know what to do to feel uplifted. YES, I have reached out to others in service and tried to fulfill my callings. Just feeling abandoned.

I was wearing pantyhose that was losing its elasticity. In the middle of a store aisle, the hose started travelling south. I tried to pull them up but they kept slipping. Finally, I just slipped out of them, in what I thought was an empty aisle! Oooops, there was another lady there, who looked at me kinda funny. I was embarassed but it sure felt good to get them off! LOL!

My first husband watched porn when my daughters were little. Then he sexually molested the youngest. Am interested if there is any correlation between pornography addiction and being around female babies. Sorry if i am off topic here and I don't want to scare the original poster who started this thread. But I also wish the best for her and this has been bothering me.

Treat others are you would want to be treated - with love and respect.

Staying away from sugar and junk food helps me overcome my agitation tremendously. When I eat poorly, my life could be stress free and I can still become severly agitated and anxious. Also, journaling helps me a lot. I hope that you can find worthy priesthood who are able to help you.

That's must be so difficult True, for your dad to be a member and hold the priesthood and then to hurt his little girl. I can tell that you are a strong woman. I didn't realize that my not forgiving my mom had such dire consequences. I think I have forgiven her but everytime she speaks to me, I get hurt again. Guess I'm learning patience. I think that Heavenly Father has let her live this long, partly, so that we can have a better relationship. Many times she has been near death but manages to pull thru.

Thankyou for all of your answers. I have forgiven my mom and have a distant relationship with her. We live a long ways away from each other and that makes it easier for me. I keep hoping that after she dies, she will visit me and we can sort it out lovingly. Jan

My parents are 89 and 84 years old. Not members. They are in poor health so may not be alive much longer. I love my dad dearly. I have done the temple ordinances for his parents. My mom severely abused me and is to this day a nasty person. I would love to be sealed to my father but not my mother. My parents are very much in love and thru a revelation I realize that they want to be together in the next life. Should I do the work for both of them and have them sealed to each other and me and trust that Heavenly Father will work it out in the end? I realize that I am ahead of myself as they are both living but I would like some input. None of my siblings are members either. Thanks,