I'm not LDS but Protestant looking into LDS (Just to clarify).
I'm with ya.
I've had so much stuff happen to me that when I announce another trial, people just say "are you joking?" It's one thing after another after another after another. I feel like it never ends. Some mornings I'm actually scared to get up and find out what is going to wrong today. After a MAJOR bill of $8,000 just this past month (Heating/cooling system broke) which we could not afford and had to scrounge around for money, the transmission on our work car is shot. We need that car to get to work...how can I pay for the transmission if we can't get to work? Stuff like this is never ending for us.
Thankfully, my husband, kids and are healthy. But my trials started when my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. At the age of 26 (when most people are still finding themselves) I was the primary caregiver, working full time, married and pregnant with my first child. She died after five long years of chemotherapy. She was my best friend. I dont think I'll ever get over that really.
After my mom's death, it's just be one mess after another. The past years have been hard for us. But again, thankfully, we are all healthy. But I did have a miscarriage in the spring so I guess one tiny little person wasn't that healthy. I think I've been depressed lately since the miscarriage and not being able to get pregnant again. I've been feeling overwhelmed and like a failure. On top of everythin that keeps going wrong for us.
I don't know...some people sail through life and others are just constantly burdened.
I do think that trials make you a better person and you grow spiritually, even if we don't feel like we do.
I'm looking in the LDS...I find no comfort in my present Protestant faith. Ok, maybe some but not much. My miscarriage put me over the edge with my faith...I searched and searched and not one person could give me any assurance of where my unborn baby went? Ok, I'm off on a tangent.
I don't know if my post helped you much but I wanted to let you know that you are not alone. There are many of us who are getting tired and wearing down.
I'm glad you shared. Burdens are lighter when carried together. Even if it is on the internet with annonymous people. Just knowing that there are others who walk with you helps.
I heard a funny quote on the radio one day. I think it's from a Rocky movie. (I'm not a movie person)
It's not how many times you get hit, it's how many times you get back up.
There are days I don't feel like getting back up but I always do.