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It's just so hard to go to church and get a reality check that I'm alone, nobody wants my company, they despise me, and sneer when i'm around, don't wish to communicate with me, as i sit there alone watching the others have fun with their friendship. My mother used to tell me that the best place to make friends is in church. I've gone through primary and young women, but haven't made any close friend there. Unlike in school where i can make friends in a snap. When I started to attend seminary back then, everything went well...soon I became inactive for some months due to some reasons, and when I returned to church, all the bitter things started to erupt. For the record, it is not just me..my other family members including my grandparents also started to noticed that something wrong is going on and they feel like they are being ignored and despised as well. My grandparents used to be one of the founding members in the ward before, doing service and helping with almost anything, and they are the first people that members ask for support, advice, money, and for solutions to their problems. Now that they are both retired, with just enough money to get by(no more charitable work) the members started to ignore them and they all started to cling to the other member who have recently made a lot of fortune. When my grandfather became very ill in the hospital that even the doctors cannot diagnose his rare condition, i asked one of the bishopric to please go to the hospital and bless my grandfather. It took so long and not one soul of a church member visited us there. We've waited and got disappointed..until one Sunday, someone finally came in to check things out, him..and only his wife went there. Luckily, my grandfather's condition started to become better after the days after the blessing. I also remembered when I was sharing a talk, 2 old ladies sitting in the front row were obviously bad mouthing about me. They look at me, cover their mouths then whisper things at one another. Another thing is, all the members worship or idolized this former bishop who used to snatch amounts from tithes and have had a scandalous relationship with a younger girl outside the church. I'm not playing or trying hard to be the victim, but this is like the only place that i can share this rants...and in search for answers on why things have to be this complicated when all I want is to have a good day in church and not have a very depressing and disappointing one. That gave me a relief....

yeah..but in my ward they all flock together like a bag of beans. Which is a much bigger problem.

No, It's official..they are trying to avoid me...and never wish to talk to me.

you seem close with all the texting and opening, why not give something nice upfront.

I once attended a youth camping trip wherein one of the leaders(someone old enough and who have gone to a mission) made an epic fail presentation. During the presentation, he was imitating a local actress in a scene of being unwillingly forced to copulate. Weird I know...and the other adults thought it was very funny.

I don't know, but I have never heard of "Mormanism" before.

Lol, that was funny...nice point

It could be a misdiagnosis.. There are a lot of vaccine induced conditions in infants that are usually misdiagnosed by doctors as shaken baby syndrome. I suggest you do more research and get a lawyer, tell your lawyer about this and ask for opinions from other doctors. Sorry, I am not a doctor and I feel so bad about this. If I were, I would help to defend you in court. I'm not sure if i'm supposed to post links but this one is full of info about shaken baby syndrome misdiagnosis Shaken Baby/Impact Syndrome: Flawed Concepts and Misdiagnoses,

nobody knows..there's a lot of discoveries to be made. What has been discovered is just a pebble compared to what needs to be discovered. And I don't see a connection between historical art architecture and the skin color of the first race. So far, there is more to be discovered...so your teacher cannot make assumptions on about this. The only person who could answer this, is the first person who ever walked on earth, not sure...but if your teacher happened to be one of the first 5 people who lived on earth, then you might as well believe him..lol:lol:

hymn songs with awesome arrangements and inspiring lyrics...no particular genre o.0

by the way, she's a woman

thanks all for the suggestions...that was really helpful

hi saints, I need a really good song for a presentation. Do you have any idea for a good farewell song for someone who's going on a mission? thanks i need this asap.:)

is green tea and earl grey okay?

thanks all

no, not yet. I just hope God will just kill me so that all of these can come to an end.

Hi all, I have been avoiding church for almost 3 months or so, because all things were becoming too bothering for me. I love going to church, I love the Gospel and I have faith in almost everything that is taught in church. My only problem there is the people, or the members. I don't understand why people seem to hate me. I always know that they were always talking behind my back and laughing at me when I am not around. I even overheard some from the other room calling me names. It all seems like people I know from outside the church were more kind and true compared to the members. I don't understand why the so called people of God are so different to me. If they are the Lord's flock, and they keep on rejecting me, then maybe I am NOT a part of the Lord's flock. I don't understand. I do admit that I am a little odd for some reasons. I have life issues and emotional problems. I was diagnosed with psychotic depression, but I always try my best to make things right. I also have separation anxiety and I also have symptoms of aspergers. I don't understand why I have this kind of life and church people shun away from me because I am odd. I always thought that the people of the Lord will be a lot different from the regular people, but they were even worse. It is really painful to accept that those who follow the true gospel are the ones that would fully degrade you to dust.