Thank you so much for your prayers and support. It means a lot to me. I really feel if I were single I would have joined the church this past summer. I just haven't pursued it because of my husband and my fear of his reaction. I am taking it slow and feel it is the best way to handle it. I do not know if I am right or not. I am just going on feelings and past experiences with him. I appreciate hearing others experiences because it does encourage me so. Again thank you for your support. Sharyl Sharyl.....Just remember, the Lord loves you and your husband very much......and I am quite sure your husband loves you and misses you very much. As the time draws nearer for him to come home I am sure the Lord will soften his heart as he will realize just what is important to him, namely you. Be his wife, be his companion, love him and talk softly, he will listen. Open up your heart to him....but make sure you do not make him feel left out of your feelings. Continue to pursue the truth, be an example to him of Christs love, be patient and the Lord will provide. Before my wife decided to join the church we had been married for 5 years and our marriage was also rocky, we felt as though we were just spinning our wheels. I knew it could be so much better with the Gospel in both our lives. But, I did not push her, I did not judge....it was something I had to let her have a desire to learn. I answered all the questions she asked me about the church as best I could and when I couldn't answer them I always told her that the missionaries would know and I could call them....she laughs about that now. During this time I was an example to her, I went to church every Sunday, home taught my familys, did service work and my calling in the church and went to ward social events (sometimes her and the kids went too). Eventually it was the Lords will that softened her heart to want to understand why I was faithful to the church and she started to be more receptive to learning....she took the discussions and was baptized...a year later we went to the Temple together and were sealed for all eternity. Our marriage is a total joy now! So, don't give up, don't stop learning about the Gospel and restored church.....and give it time, for the Lord will bless you and your husband for your faith as he did me and my wife. May the Lord bless you with all you stand in need of....you are in our prayers.