ashestamour

I was in a very abusive relationship as well and I do know how trapped you must feel.. I prayed - the hardest I ever have in my entire life.. I had a strong prompting to pack everything I had at his place and leave.. I almost didn't follow it but I know that if I hadn't I would still be with him. So my advice is pray, and listen to what the Holy Spirit is trying to tell you. It will change your life and you will be so grateful that you did - it wont be easy but you can do it!

Yes I agree with you and I wasn't planning on writing him often. I am just wondering if there are any restrictions on me being able to? It seems like I remember hearing them say I may not be able to because I'm a girl and not from his home - unless I get special permission. I have been very respectful to him and his mission, anyone who isn't aware of the feelings I have for him wouldn't be able to tell that I do. I keep my distance as much as possible so he knows that I don't want anything to happen between us right now, but I know he's still aware of the fact that I like him. I truly feel in my heart that if this Elder didn't like me in the same way he would definitely put a stop to this, he knows how I feel, he also knows what I went through. I know that he wouldn't want to see me hurting; he's stated how much he wants me happy. There was another girl who clearly had feelings for him in our branch and he put an end to it. (with a little help from me and my mom of course - he wasn't sure how to handle it.) haha. I also was planning on focusing on myself for the next few months, hopefully I'll be getting my license and I'll just continue working and strengthening my testimony. Thank you for your response, I appreciate it.

I had a prompting to delete this thread that I had written - but I don't see how I can so I just removed everything I wrote before. I would still like to ask this question though; There is a missionary at my branch, transfers are coming up soon and I was wondering if there are any restrictions on writing to him once he leaves? I asked him and his companion a couple times when his companion was transferred, the first time I think they told me I'm not allowed to because I'm a girl - my family and I would have to write a letter and address it from us. But then there was another time we asked and they told me I could get special permission to write... So I don't really feel comfortable asking for the third time - I was hoping maybe someone could let me know if there's anything I should know before sending him a letter?