This is definitely a time when I'm grateful for an anonymous message board, because I don't know anyone in my ward well enough to ask this to.
Okay, a few years ago(almost eight) I worked as a summer camp counselor at a church camp(non-LDS). While there I met some really great people. There were two that were dating, and I was the unofficial chaperone.(If I was with them, they didn't get in as much trouble for going off on their own, and I was pretty easygoing.) I liked the guy in the relationship, but he was dating one of my good friends, so I put those feelings aside to simply be friends. And it worked.
Over the years, he and I have talked sporadically, but not for any length of time, and not about anything really serious.
He's a night owl, like me, so we usually talk in the evening. The other night we were talking, and I fell asleep. The next evening when we talked, he made the comment that it was sweet he was the last thing I was thinking of before sleep. Nothing major.
Over the last few nights, the conversations have gotten more and more serious, and also quite inappropiate. I wasn't sure if he was serious, or just messing with me. And at the same time I knew our conversations weren't appropiate, but I didn't know what to say/do without hurting him and/or myself. So last night I finally asked him, and he said he was serious, but also cautious, because he doesn't want to be hurt. Then he made the comment that he should have thought things thru because he's became atheistic and I joined the church since we last saw each other.
So now I'm stuck. Do I stay in the church, cut any possibility of this relationship off, and stay lonely, or do I see where this relationship could lead, knowing that if I do, I will probly end up leaving the church, in some manner. I don't believe he would make me leave the church.
But like the title says, I have to wonder if this is my last chance. I don't really know any guys in my ward who are my age, and almost all my friends from my former branch are either married or getting married this summer(the one is only 20). So this weighs on my mind too.
I'd appreciate any feedback, and I thank you in advance.