Fether

I'm an RM of about 6 months. As I neared the end of my mission, the idea of marriage seemed more and more exciting. I was also aware (though not understanding) of the challenges that come with it. At the end of my mission, my mission president gave me the typical RM advice to "BE ANXIOUSLY ENGAGED IN FINDING AN ETERNAL COMPANION". Now that I am home and dating, I have gone through 2 great relationships and am currently in one. My first 2 relationships ended the same way. We started dating and eventually started getting some what serious. Right as I would arrange for them to meet my parents, I started getting feelings that things were moving too fast, she isn't the one I should marry, what if there is somewhere more compatible for me? What if there is someone prettier? etc. I would try to weather it but it would occupy my mind 24/7 and eventually I would break up with them because of the stress (leaving her with an excuse like "We are moving too fast"). That same pattern is happening now and it is to the point where I almost don't even like her anymore. I had a mini panic attack 2 nights ago before I went to meet her family and now she is coming home with me for Christmas to meet mine. There was absolutely nothing wrong with any of these girls, all RM's all very righteous and temple worthy. Am I expecting too much? Am I moving too quickly? What can I do to remove these fears and move forward in faith? Is this NORMAL (if so, I may just choose to stay single! This is worse than anything I ever faced on my mission!)????? Any advice???

I had a conversation with a friend of mine a while back dealing with ratings in movies and games. He was heckling me a little bit after I told him I didn't watch 'R' movies. I explained to him that it had nothing to do with the rating and everything to do with the content. I would never watch and 'R' movie and there are countless 'PG-13' movies I would never watch. same with M games. There are a few I'm comfortable playing but the majority I stay away from. Try making your decision on whether to keep it or not on the content and not the rating, if you focus on the rating, a LOT of justification can be made.