just_girl Posted April 12, 2011 Report Posted April 12, 2011 So, I haven't been on here in months, but wanted to let someone know that I've started becoming much more serious about investigating and seeing where things land. I attended the local ward on Sunday and, though I wasn't planning on staying, ended up not only staying through Sunday School (I was talking with the missionary sisters during this) and then Relief Society, but I was there about an hour after all of that was over just talking with some of the ladies. Tomorrow morning (Tuesday) the missionary sisters are coming over to do some more talking. I'm not really sure what will happen or where things will end up, as I've spent time in quite a few different religions (mainly the Community of Christ - RLDS - where I was raised and actually ordained when I was 17) and have come to a point where I realize I am quite hardened and not as open to spiritual things as I once was. I'm quite fearful of this journey and yet, after being there on Sunday, I'm quite anxious and excited as well. It is strange, to say the least. Anyway, even though when I last posted I wasn't taken to quite keenly, I figured I would let 'someone' know that this is happening... can't really talk that much about what is happening with my family because of how involved in the CofC they are. Thanks for listening! Quote
ztodd Posted April 12, 2011 Report Posted April 12, 2011 Great to hear that you've begun the journey- keep it up, and God bless! Post any questions you want help with :) Quote
just_girl Posted April 12, 2011 Author Report Posted April 12, 2011 Thanks for the response, ztodd... The meeting went well... we met at my house for a couple of hours and then I took them to lunch... just got back, actually, and I'm getting more and more excited as time goes on. Who knows what will happen... Just wanted to thank you for saying something... hopefully I can post more as time goes on... I'm sure I will have questions but they were really great today about answering anything I asked. Quote
rameumptom Posted April 12, 2011 Report Posted April 12, 2011 The feeling of the Spirit in your life truly takes time to get used to. It isn't easy to follow this path, especially when family members may oppose it. But when you follow the Lord's Spirit, he often opens the doors for other family members to follow. Quote
just_girl Posted April 12, 2011 Author Report Posted April 12, 2011 To say that my family members will oppose this is putting it lightly... Since they are involved in major leadership roles in the CofC it will probably cause some friction, to say the least. And now, well, apparently the boyfriend wants me to step back and simply go to church for now. Not sure the reasoning, but when I talked to him after meeting with the missionaries he said that maybe I should just go to church and not do anything else for a time... Is it wrong that I feel differently? That I want to move full steam ahead? I'm one of those people, though, that once I get an idea, I push through to the point of exhaustion... I tend to be very single-minded and ultra focused... but if something squashes my enthusiasm, sometimes it is hard to pick back up.... It was certainly like having the wind taken out of my sails a bit when he said that. Gr... of all people, I didn't expect HIM to react that way. Quote
beefche Posted April 12, 2011 Report Posted April 12, 2011 Is this the same boyfriend that is LDS and you are in a long distance relationship? Is he still hesitant for you to take the discussions because he wants to 1) be a part of it and 2) baptize you? Quote
just_girl Posted April 13, 2011 Author Report Posted April 13, 2011 I'm not sure why he decided this... yes, it is the same boyfriend I had posted about previously... I guess I'll figure it out... I realize this isn't about HIM at this point, it is my decision, I just wish he was as enthusiastic as I am about this new journey. Quote
beefche Posted April 13, 2011 Report Posted April 13, 2011 Honestly, I would be concerned that he would ask this without explaining why. A relationship requires that you discuss things, not simply request actions. So, if I were you, I'd be having a real heart to heart with him about all of his concerns with me investigating and potentially being baptized. Quote
just_girl Posted April 13, 2011 Author Report Posted April 13, 2011 Thanks... In all honesty, I think I'm seeing the writing on the wall, I'm just not wanting to admit to it because were it not for him, I never would have decided to begin investigating in earnest anyway... Now that I'm here, I'm feeling even more drawn and it is not simply because of the relationship that I'm in - it is bigger than that. Sighs... Thanks for your thoughts, though... I really do appreciate it. Quote
Blackmarch Posted April 13, 2011 Report Posted April 13, 2011 So, I haven't been on here in months, but wanted to let someone know that I've started becoming much more serious about investigating and seeing where things land. I attended the local ward on Sunday and, though I wasn't planning on staying, ended up not only staying through Sunday School (I was talking with the missionary sisters during this) and then Relief Society, but I was there about an hour after all of that was over just talking with some of the ladies. Tomorrow morning (Tuesday) the missionary sisters are coming over to do some more talking. I'm not really sure what will happen or where things will end up, as I've spent time in quite a few different religions (mainly the Community of Christ - RLDS - where I was raised and actually ordained when I was 17) and have come to a point where I realize I am quite hardened and not as open to spiritual things as I once was. I'm quite fearful of this journey and yet, after being there on Sunday, I'm quite anxious and excited as well. It is strange, to say the least. Anyway, even though when I last posted I wasn't taken to quite keenly, I figured I would let 'someone' know that this is happening... can't really talk that much about what is happening with my family because of how involved in the CofC they are. Thanks for listening!THat's awesome :). I've found that with the gospel it's always a new journey (whether new or old), and theres always smething that seems daunting ahead of you, but its worth taking it. Quote
just_girl Posted April 13, 2011 Author Report Posted April 13, 2011 So I really did some praying last night and as I realized that every time I have tried to make a stand for a relationship with God, there has been something come into the path in the form of an earthly relationship that has kept me from making the commitment I need to make. ALWAYS. And to this point, I have always picked being involved with an earthly man over being sold out for my Heavenly Father. I'm not wanting to make that choice this time. I know what I need to do and just ask that anyone that reads this will lift me up in prayer, that I may have the strength to be who I was created to be... and that I may overcome this constant problem in my life. Quote
MichaelPAGuy Posted April 14, 2011 Report Posted April 14, 2011 Just_Girl I am keeping you in my prayers. Just know that if this is the path that Heavenly Father is leading you on, then do not let anything or anyone stand in your way. Obstacles are made to overcome them so we can return to live with him again. It is up to us, with his help to overcome those obstacles. Quote
just_girl Posted April 14, 2011 Author Report Posted April 14, 2011 Thank you so much. I'm really trying, even though the more I talk about what I'm feeling, the more the boyfriend is wanting me to back off and just wait until we are together so we can do this together. It just is solidifying to me what needs to happen. Quote
just_girl Posted April 17, 2011 Author Report Posted April 17, 2011 So much has happened I'm not even sure where to begin. And since I dont know if anyone will actually read this, well, I dont know what to say... What I do know, though, is that even though the boyfriend changed his mind AGAIN and this time said he thought I needed to not be going to church at all right now and to just hold tight until we are closer in proximity and he can be involved... even though that is what he said, I went again today, anyway. And yesterday I went to a fireside that was simply amazing (as in, hearing Stephanie Nielson speak, amazing!) even though, again, he told me that I shouldn't go. What else has he said? Dont talk to the missionaries (yeah, haven't stopped talking to them and I certainly don't plan on it) and don't talk to anyone else about church. Sighs. Not good, right? So after yesterday and today I am completely sure that this is the path I am supposed to be on. So much so that I tried to call the boyfriend and have a conversation with him about ending our relationship. Yes, surprising, I know, but it is what it is. It has been years since I have felt such a sure tugging in my spirit and I'm not sure I have EVER felt it this strongly. Giving up this relationship means giving up so many plans that have been made for the future already. I'm not sure what will come now and I have no idea how I will make it, but I am sure that if I continue walking in the way I am supposed to, it will all work out. Do you remember the BoM video cartoons, Living Scriptures? The one about Nephi had a song in it entitled, 'I will go and do what the Lord hath commanded"... the second line of that song says 'No matter what others may say"... This song was one of my absolute favorites growing up and for some reason it came back to me when I started thinking about attending the local ward... I never knew the words would speak to me in the way they are today, though. Sighs... enough for now... especially since no one will probably read this or respond.... Quote
beefche Posted April 18, 2011 Report Posted April 18, 2011 Well, I read it. It's difficult to break off a relationship, no matter the reason. Even though I am not privy to your relationship with this guy, my opinion is it sounds like it is a good decision. A relationship involves respect and consideration. His insistence to stop contact without reason is concerning. And it appears that he isn't listening to the things that are important to you. I'm sorry it has to resort to this. Good luck. Quote
ztodd Posted April 26, 2011 Report Posted April 26, 2011 Bless you just_girl, your determination to follow your Heavenly Father is inspiring to me. I'm 34, but I love those animated videos :) - great music and and great messages. I believe that the Holy Ghost can guide us greatly through these kinds of things. Quote
just_girl Posted April 30, 2011 Author Report Posted April 30, 2011 Just in case anyone was wondering... soooooooooooooo much has happened... I wish I felt free to share all of it but, frankly, since I'm not really connecting with anyone on here, I'm not sure it would be of any use. So, I'll just suffice it to say that as of this coming Tuesday - May 2 - I'll be baptized... Not that anyone on here cares... but just to tidy up the story... and after thinking I had to walk away from the relationship, he has come around and - HOPEFULLY - will even be here on Tuesday. Either way, Tuesday it is. Quote
rameumptom Posted April 30, 2011 Report Posted April 30, 2011 That is awesome. We definitely care for those seeking to follow Christ. We hope it is a wonderful day for you, and the friend will be a true and strong support for you on that day. Quote
just_girl Posted May 1, 2011 Author Report Posted May 1, 2011 Thanks... I really do appreciate it.... I had a ton more typed out but it all seems too personal... especially since I dont feel like most people care on here... LOL Just know that I will proudly and humbly be joining your ranks come Tuesday... baptism and confirmation and all.... Quote
ztodd Posted May 1, 2011 Report Posted May 1, 2011 Not sure why you think people here don't care - it's always a wonderful thing to hear conversion stories and see a devoted sister enter into the gospel through baptism! Hope to hear more from you whenever you have time to post. Quote
beefche Posted May 1, 2011 Report Posted May 1, 2011 Congrats. I hope it all works out for you. Quote
just_girl Posted May 2, 2011 Author Report Posted May 2, 2011 ztodd - I suppose I am probably reading into things by saying that people dont care - I felt fairly attacked in the first thread I started (and probably needed to feel that way) but it didn't give me a good feeling about this board... not enough to keep me away completely, obviously, but I certainly didn't feel overly welcomed. Thankfully my experience at the local ward has been WAY different (in a wonderful way) and while I'm not naive' enough to think that the people that make up a church should be perfect, I do think it is important to feel as though you are a part of things... shrugs.... just me, I guess.... I had my interview tonight and 'passed'... I'm officially taking the next step on Tuesday... ! Quote
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