Amym73

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  1. After a decade being inactive and losing all my books and study materials in a flood I'm not sure with where to start now. ?

    Of course I have gotten in touch with my local ward since I've moved and they are looking for my records, but,  in the meantime is there a good place to start when you don't have anything to read or know a single soul in your area?

    I'm sure I've forgotten heaps since I converted 13 years ago and of course am out of the loop because I have been inactive for so long. Of course not going inactive would have been the best course but due to past circumstances...Well it is, what it is.. I feel like it's akin to starting over at this point. I'm just not sure where to start today any advice would be very welcome. 

  2. 14 hours ago, jasoncomely said:

    Oops, I broke the reply and deleted your words, things are harder from my phone... :)

    I think it's wonderful that you found a simple way to help bolster your faith again. Zen really is simple and amazing! 

    And yes I am very fortunate to have access to a Zen monastery, I am very thankful for the reminder and will plan a trip for some recharging and renewal soon. 

  3. 15 hours ago, Eowyn said:

    Welcome, and welcome back. I love genealogy, too. What a great thing to find! My SIL who is the first convert in her family found a Mormon ancestor, too. It does help you feel a certain connectedness. But even without that... there is a place for you, always. There's a place for the gregarious ones, and there's a place for those who sit quietly and take things in. 

    Thank you for your kind words, it feels so good to hear that there is always a place for me. I hope it works out here. I met a few ladies in my ward using the genealogy center at the local stake and they were so very sweet and kind. 

  4. 14 hours ago, pam said:

    Plus Amy you are living in a good state.  I'll be up there next year for my family reunion. :)

    I am. Oregon is beautiful! Most of the people are very nice, I feel much more so,  in the area I am now in Southern Oregon. 

    Wonderful that you have reunions, my family stopped having them after the last oldest generation died, very sad. I hope you have a wonderful reunion!  

  5. I live near a Zen monastery, I love to attend weekend retreats and fall down the stairs. Okay, falling down the stairs wasn't so enjoyable but I learned something from it.  

    I do love the practical application of Zen alongside Christianity, when I remember to actually use it. Your site sounds like a wonderful place and I would love to visit it. 

  6. 1 hour ago, pam said:

    I always seem to find out that when an ancestry in the church goes back that far...I'm probably related to them in some way.  So we could be long lost cousins. :)   My ancestors on my mom's side go all the way back to Joseph Smith days.  It's really cool to learn more about them.

    ? isn't it amazing how often others are connected! I was shocked to find out I was related to Joseph Smith, 5th cousin 5 times removed. 

  7. Hello

    I'm Amy. I converted 13 years ago.  I had wanted to convert since I was 20 but my 1st Husband absolutely refused to let me.  It was rough, my 2nd husband was not religious but let me do it because it was so important to me. I was active while in lived I  Washington but when I moved to Oregon I had major difficulty making friends in my new ward. I was treated like an outsider and never felt wanted or invited. I still struggled on for over a year before I stopped going. Noone seemed to care and it seemed to validate my feelings of not belonging.  I was maybe a bit overly sensitive back then. I am not sure,  as I suffer from social anxiety. 

    We had recently moved and I hopped on to my lds account to work with employment services to see if I could find a little job while working on my graduate degree.   

    I have always remained devoted to working on  my genealogy, last week imagine my surprise when I found that my 4th great grandparent's were Mormon pioneers. Finding this information and reading their story and struggles suddenly awakened an overwhelming feeling. I think I cried when I realized that I wasn't alone in joining the church. It felt like I was validated when my family had all acted like I'd done something crazy when I was baptized 13 years ago. 

    Well now here I am, perpetually placing myself in awkward scenarios. In another new place where I know nobody.  I have contacted the clerk at my ward to request my membership record and try to see if there is a place for me with all of my faults and 10 year absence. I feel like I've forgotten everything which makes me apprehensive,  so here I am reading around on the forums and the lds site. Baby steps.  ?