Hello, everyone.

[davidroscoe]

Hello,

Im new here, just found this web forum, and thought i would sign for something new. Im a bit backwards from most people, im very spirit filled, and have had very good luck finding the truth for myself.

My history is a bit strange too. Durring my childhood my family lived on a farm, and when i was four years old my parents and other family members decided that everyone should go to church on a Easter sunday when i was four years old. Thats when i first heard about our heavenly fathers son, and what he did for us. I just couldnt get that off my mind, and even decided at the time, that if that were for real, thats what i wanted to be like.

After my dad died at the age of eight years old, my mother had gotten remarried, and we moved to the city in a different town. But my life became difficult as my new dad was very harsh. Thats when i decided that our heavenly father was going to have to take the place of my dad, and show me what i would need to do. Then at the age of twelve a angel spoke to me about a event that was going to take place, which was a neighbor tree was going to fall. Later the tree fell, which i wasnt sure why this took place untill later.

When i was fifteen years old, some interesting things started happening within my family. My grandparents, my dads mom and dad became saved. They totally changed and was a very strange experiance for me, and i wasnt really sure if i liked them that way. Then my own mom changed, and i found i did like her better that way. Then a good friend of mine told me that he had changed, and these changes were drastic in measure. Something i couldnt really get used too, though made me wonder if our heavenly father was real.

After watching the news, about the different denominations fighting, i decided they must not know anything about how to be saved. I decided i would have to go directley to God for the answers i needed. I asked, and recieved a answer, after getting up in the morning found myself in vision standing and looking at a grove of trees. Thats were God and his son spoke telling me they were going to help me. This had something to do with a tree.

I searched around durring the years after that, i talked to preachers, teachers, reverands, pastors, and you name it, but no one could give me a answer to what took place that day in my vision. It just seemed like if they really knew God someone would know what i was going through and the meaning to things. But no one did. Many things took place after that, as being visited.

I had thought it really came together after i was twenty two years old, that when something happened to me i have a hard time explaining. I just know i had the desire to be like heavenly father, and thats where my love was. He seemed to be the only one who true cared for me, as my life, no other did. I was cought up in vision reading the bible, and had recieved something of love to change me. I had just gotten this bible, and was reading it for the first time, and i had found the first vision in first corinthians chapter three by being transformed. I couldnt help but notice that the people i was reading about were a lot like myself.

After that i was cought up in severl visions within that year, one was because of my friend who was a JW and always had to debate everything and was never wrong about his interpretations of the bible. He made me very upset, and when i had asked God how i could help him, Heavenly Father told me of the agreement. Then in another vision Heavenly Father told me of marrige but with the heavenly side to it. Then in another was a circle of fire where i got the name of Joseph, but was about my dad dieing and how i felt about it and replacing God as my father. Then in the last vision was with a friend and he light up which i later found a picture of Joseph who looked like him.

At the age of twenty three after asking heanley father if i could help, he told me i didnt know where anyone was so i couldnt have that. Then when i was having some trouble deciding what direction to go in my life, i gave into heavenly father and he put me in a situation like the last supper. Even a angel told me to look and see but i didnt think anything was going to take place untill the sean was set.

After that not much took place though i waited and waited. I just remember heavenly father had promised me that if i didnt give up that i would get a reward. So i kept looking but didnt find anything. I had gotten hurt several times by people who i though liked me, though i even admit that what i say sounds a bit strange, so i cant really blame anyone for what they might think about that. But in getting hurt i saw a pattern, and asked heavenly father why a couple of different time and he showed me to understand the differane between people. Which i was really supprised at.

Then it wasnt untill after i had to learn something about benifits that i finally asked heavenly father to take me to people who were like myself, and show them to me because i had been so alone for so long. Then he sent two brothers to my door, and so i decided to speak with them. It came out that i have received answers from Reading the bible and asking heavenly father for answers, so they were kind of supprised to hear that, and gave me the book of mormon. So i put forth the effort into reading that book, and praying, but got absolutley nothing from it, not even a clue.

Then i was hurt once more, even crusified it felt like, it even came out with no differance between a common criminal and me but i have always been honest with myself and to God. It figured because thats how the story went in the bible with Jesus. So i figured that the next step was rezerection, and new that had to do with baptizm which i hadnt been yet. Thats when two sisters came to my door, and i spoke with them and told them that i had read the book of mormon and didnt get anything out of it. But they told me to ask heavenly father if i should speak further with them, and they would come back the next day to find out. That night i had a dream we were standing on the porch and one of the girls said, wasnt it nice to have such a loving heavenly father. Then a light grew untill we were all sanding within that light. So the next day i told them that heavenly father gave me a answer that i should hear what they have to say.

You see, i knew nothing about the Mormons, they were alien to this area. But i was ready to hear them and what they had to say, mostley because God wanted me to. Light is Love symbolically. After waling with God, the side effect is understanding dreams, because dreams have a lot to do with things. I found out when they talk to you they find out what you believe and find out if you belong in the church. I didnt know there were several visits or meetings. But when the first meeting took place, Boy was i in shock. Do you know what is said in the first meeting? God droped that bomb on me from a mile up, and believe me when all you have worked for in life was to find God, and be like him, and you wonder if you ever will find what you looking for, and you have nothing but LOVE in your heart and that takes place, its a wowser. Just like me is all i could say. The rest of the meetings went the same way, were i had been shown something of it. They were all dreams, but the one about the lion in the dead woods that was gong to kill me came to mind durring one. The death before God comes.

Now some people think its because i have a purpose, though what i do know is that LOVE is the greates gift of all, love in in the heart, its what goes in the eyes, and when Love is the gift looking at love(God), you get that love in return. Because i have such a powerfull testemony and is who i am, i often have trouble getting past that. So i have been working on getting over myself. It really hinders me, and keeps me from doing what i need to do. Im often a distraction, and people want to know more, and will talk with me about it. Mainley because im able to triangulate between the book of mormon, the bible, myself, and Joseph. I do know that God is in the people, and everyone i have met in the church are very nice people, and im very glad to be a part of that.

Thanks for reading if you made it to this point. I was baptized at thrity seven years old, in the years 2000.

Peace and Love in Jesus.

[pam]

Welcome to the site.

[dazed-and-confused]

welcome....and, yes, i read it all. i feel too, that getting over one's self is on the top of the list of lessons in this life.

[Bini]

Welcome to the site.

[Dr T]

Big welcome to u :)

[Evelin]

Nice to have you here!