I didn't hold on to the Iron rod...

[Robogirl]

So, I just became a member here today, I have written this as a blog entry, but I would also like a "discussion" about it.

Hope you will be gentle with me, I think that our Heavenly father tries to tell me something, like I got a new testimony that I need to put my act together and do something.

Well, here is my blogentry:

I was so happy when I back in 2008 found the church, I was baptized and I moved to Utah to study at BUY. I found out that I needed to divorce my husband, I was not in love with him, heck he didn't turn me on, and I find that very important. I also knew that my biggest wish was to find another member of the church, a man who was strong in faith and with whom I could practice family prayer. However, things didn't turn out that way, I went back to Europe, got my divorce and, tadaaaa fell in love with a non member.

I had some bad experiences when I moved back in my new church, and I actually stopped attending to sacretmeeting before I met my boyfriend. The last sacretmeeting I went to the speech was about not beeing just a "sunday" mormon, and I felt so bad, because that was what I had become.

Now I have been away from the church almost a year, I can feel I miss it more every day, but I am not following the word of wisdom with chastity, and it is just very hard. I love my boyfriend, but I am afraid that he will never marry me, and I love the church and I am afraid that I can never go back.

Marie

[slamjet]

Congratulations, you're human :)

It seems here that you have a decision to make. God or you boyfriend. You know what it is you need to do. You know what is the proper decision you need to make. What you need is the courage to make that decision, and that courage is not as easy to come by as some think.

What you also need is to exercise faith. Believe it or not, God gives us trials not to test us to see how we will get through it, but so that we can learn how to get through it. And the first step is to let yourself go and put but a tiny little bit of faith in God.

Start reading the scriptures every day. Start praying at least twice a day. Start going back to church and becoming active. It will come back to you and you will gain that courage to make the correct choices.

What do I mean about the correct choice? The choices that are going to free you from a life with someone who will not uplift you, the choice that will take you from a life of detriment to one of freedom. The choice that you, in and of yourself, need help and that the only one who will help you in every way possible is God, and that a bit of faith will translate into a huge momentum shift in your life.

Prayerfully read Alma 32 in the Book of Mormon again.

[Nanawolfe]

Joining the church is the easy part. Living the gospel is not easy. As I read your post I remembered being in a very similar place. I made a very difficult decision and have never regretted the choice I made. Oh, I still have days when the pain is there. But I know I made the right choice for me. I chose my Faith, God, the church, However you want to say it over the man. I loved him and love him still, but when I look at the BIG picture, the eternal picture - I want to go home (eventually, no time real soon, I hope) I want the whole Celestial Eternity. I want to be with my Father and my Elder Brother who sacrificed so much for me.

I may be alone now, for a time. But I know that I have done what was right for me. I'm blessed and loved and really I am never alone.

I believe you know what you need to do. I know that it will take courage and prayer and faith. I also know you won't have to do it alone. You are in my prayers.

[RipplecutBuddha]

We all let go of the Iron Rod in some way or another. We're stubborn children, and sometimes we want to prove that we can do it right on our own. Sometimes we can, but when we start getting proud of ourselves, we get careless and forget what's really important. The beautiful part is that even when we tell God "I can do it myself", he loves us enough to say "Okay. Do your best. I'll be here for you when you need help."

It's not that he wants us to get lost in the paths that lead away from the iron rod. He just knew that we'd do it because he gave us the ability. He's also given us the ability to return and grab the rod again.

What's really important is that God knew this would happen with all of us repeatedly throughout our lives. That's why he established the principle of repentance. No matter what you have done, you can get past it. You can be forgiven, and you can once again partake of the glorious fruit of the tree of life. Heavenly Father wants you back. He's on your side, and he loves you more than you can realize.

Take courage in the task before you. Great strength will be yours as you find your way back. Remember Nephi's observance that God will not give us a challenge we cannot meet. You can overcome this, and with God's help you will not only do so, but you will realize greater blessings in the process.

May God be with you always.

[prophetofdoom]

I have seen this situation so many times. Non-member boyfriend/girlfriend enjoy all the benefits of marriage without the commitment of marriage.. every time, it leads to pain. Then, they may act like there is a small "hope" of marriage on the horizon but the marriage is never realized.

There is conflict in your soul because of sin. You know the right choice in your heart. You are going to have to make some tough decisions... like telling the boyfriend.. marry me or hit the highway...

[Robogirl]

Thx for all of your answers, it's not an easy task for me, but I will keep pray and talk to our heavenly father.

Eventually I will talk to my bishop as well, I just haven't been in my new ward after I have moved, I need to read some more in the scriptures first, I think.

[swb25]

hey iam ex i know that for me the people in the curch i was sure would jugde me but some members have showed me great love just find some true freinds

[Traveler]

Thx for all of your answers, it's not an easy task for me, but I will keep pray and talk to our heavenly father.

Eventually I will talk to my bishop as well, I just haven't been in my new ward after I have moved, I need to read some more in the scriptures first, I think.

Sometimes we think something hard because we struggle with what we want most with what we want now. I believe things seem difficult because we follow a path that makes it so. But the greatest joys come from accomplishing that which is most difficult. The importance of a journey is not so much as to where you have been as it is where you are going.

The Traveler

[AltF4Aveon]

ANYWAYS.

who cares? brainwashed trash jejejejeje.

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