Guest Posted September 12, 2013 Report Posted September 12, 2013 (edited) I don't really want this to be an enormous post, so please forgive me in advance if it ends up being that way. I grew up a Christian and remained one for the better part of 20 years or so. I "gave my life to Christ" when I was about 7 or 8 if I remember correctly, but in all honesty I wasn't really sure what that meant at the time, so I am not sure if I was serious or not, but I believe that I was. I "gave my life to Christ" many times over the next few years, always going thru periods of being "on fire" and periods of being "worldly" if that makes sense. Also, I am currently 24 years old and am married and have been for 2 years now. My wife is a Christian at least I think so, I know she was raised Apostolic and until she met me she was really into that as far as the way of life of an Apostolic, just a little background on that. I am not sure where things started to change with me to be completely honest. I think it was around the age of 20 or so if I remember correctly, I had been heavy all my life and lost a ton of weight (gained it back unfortunately, but trying my best to get it off again) and I got on some anti-depressants because I struggle with really bad anxiety/depression/panic attacks and those helped me get out and about and explore the world and even helped me land my first 'real' job. I started questioning things around the age of 20-21 after I had been going thru this "on fire" stage as I like to call it. I was really heavily into the theology and I considered myself a Calvinist for quite awhile and felt that I had a really, really good understanding of the Bible, probably the best understanding I had had in my whole life up until that point, and not only that but also felt extremely strong in my faith. Then, BOOM, something happened and to tell you the truth I am not sure what it was. I remember feeling very happy that I wasn't dealing with panic attacks every hour and was so happy I was able to get out of the house and actually do stuff, I mean actually go into a store, walk around and not feel like I was dying. I had been living with my grandparents all this time, my dad had lived in Los Angeles at the time and I decided I wanted to take a vacation of sorts so I moved down there with him to take a break from everything. After a few months there I really started questioning what I believed and ended up giving up everything all together and became an "Atheist/Agnostic" or whatever you want to call it. I soon decided I wanted to start investigating other religions so I started with the Mormon church and after only a few weeks or investigation I joined the Mormon church and was baptized. Now, a lot of it was peer pressure, but I have to admit that I really wanted to join that church as well, I am not sure if I had the "burning in the bosom" as they call it, but I definitely felt attracted to the place. I eventually left the Mormon church and requested my name be removed from their list, after not being able to come to terms with some of their more crazy beliefs (crazy, in my opinion at least) such as becoming gods and Jesus not really being the God, so I left and became "Christian" again, though I am not sure if I was totally sincere this time or if I was just angry with the LDS church, but it felt sincere to me. I started getting into studying the Bible again and watching videos on YouTube and fellowshipping, etc. then I fell out of it again after a few months and stopped doing anything all together. When me and my wife got married after a few months I started watching some stuff on the LDS church, and reading the Book of Mormon and I also started meeting with missionaries again and decided I wanted to start visiting the church again but I believe I was told my name was no longer in the books (although I don't 100% remember for sure) so I lost interest and didn't talk to the missionaries anymore. (Not only that but my anxiety/panic attacks flared up again and I did not have any medication so I suffered with it and was not able to do all that I used to do before) Again after that I began studying the Bible a lot more, and getting into it and even doing readings with my wife and then poof, I just gave it up all together and I've been that way for the majority of 2 years or so now. I am not sure why I am telling you all of this but I just felt the need to get all of this off of my chest because it was something that was on my mind tonight. Thank you all for listening and please share your thoughts with me, also, sorry that everything is so jumbled together, my thoughts were sorta racing. Edited September 13, 2013 by ChristTheTruth Quote
NeuroTypical Posted September 12, 2013 Report Posted September 12, 2013 I have two thoughts. 1. Everyone is on a journey. Let God guide yours. 2. TL;DR. But if I guess right, my first thought fits, right? Quote
Guest Posted September 12, 2013 Report Posted September 12, 2013 I have two thoughts.1. Everyone is on a journey. Let God guide yours.2. TL;DR. But if I guess right, my first thought fits, right?There was a time when the tl;dr was not translated properly when writing on a tablet. We may still have that problem... Quote
john doe Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 I have only one thought: Paragraphs are our friends. Quote
Guest Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 Fixed it. Would anyone be willing to send me a set of scriptures? Quote
jerome1232 Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 (edited) Fixed it. Would anyone be willing to send me a set of scriptures?They are available in an electronic format online for free at lds.org, you can also request a free physical copy on that site.Scriptures | LDS.orgIf you have a device running iOS or Android, there is a great gospel library app which is free that has just about every ounce of church material you can imagine. It's great for studying, I prefer it to a physical volume most days.If you want some uplifting, I highly recomend the bible videos on the Mormon Channel on YouTubeMormon Channel - YouTube Edited September 13, 2013 by jerome1232 Quote
Guest Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 They are available in an electronic format online for free at lds.org, you can also request a free physical copy on that site.Scriptures | LDS.orgIf you have a device running iOS or Android, there is a great gospel library app which is free that has just about every ounce of church material you can imagine. It's great for studying, I prefer it to a physical volume most days.If you want some uplifting, I highly recomend the bible videos on the Mormon Channel on YouTubeMormon Channel - YouTubeThanks, I prefer a physical copy though, but don't want to meet with missionaries at the moment. Quote
Leah Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 Thanks, I prefer a physical copy though, but don't want to meet with missionaries at the moment.You can purchase the Book of Mormon for less than $5.00. Quote
Lakumi Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 or get one for free... they'll send one to ya Quote
Guest Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 or get one for free... they'll send one to yaThey won't send one, they have to have missionaries bring it over and set up a meeting. Quote
bytebear Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 They won't send one, they have to have missionaries bring it over and set up a meeting.No, you can request a copy without missionaries coming. Quote
Guest Posted September 13, 2013 Report Posted September 13, 2013 No, you can request a copy without missionaries coming.Interesting. I am not aware of how to do that. Quote
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