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I read somewhere that spouses do this because they want attention from their spouse. Don't know if it's true, though.

Years ago, I did see a person at church in California that used to be a man but underwent a sex change to become a woman. I'm just sayin'.... Just my view--I am extremely imperfect. If the people at church knew about some of the things I've done in my past, I don't know if they would even talk to me at all. Nevertheless... If anyone did know more about me and had a problem with me attending church, my attitude toward their attitude would be, "Screw them. I'm going for me, because I need to go. So I don't care what they think, really." It seems to me that church is like a hospital. People go there because they are unwell and need healing from the Spirit of God. I am unwell spiritually. I have found healing from attending church.

For reals? I Am interested in touring a masonic building! Just email me at [email protected]. My great grandfather was a freemason. Yet, I am still suspicious of the group since I've read that George W and Obama are both Freemasons and that so was Saddam Hussein. So, I don't know.

I sure hope there's no two strikes policy. It doesn't make sense that there would be. But it is worth at least trying to repent. Just my thoughts, no matter how far wrong you've gone, you can always turn around. Please keep us updated on what happens. Prayers sent up for you.

Yeah, I'm sure church leaders make mistakes. For instance, years ago, one time, for some unknown reason, the bishop asked me three times if I'd done any sort of sexual sin. I had not. But I did think it was odd that he would ask me this. I wasn't even thinking of committing a sexual sin. I kept answering no to his questions. So, I just figured maybe he was asking some uninspired questions of me.

@HiJolly- But what about that book called None Dare Call It Conspiracy? Ezra Taft Benson said this book is Conspiracy Fact. And he was in the Department of Agriculture. You can see him tell people that they should read this book on YouTube. It talks a lot about secret combinations.

So, HiJolly-- What's the difference between speculative masonry and spurious masonry? I guess I could Google that. But I really don't like the Illuminati. They freak me out. :/

HiJolly--York and Scottish Rite? The 33rd degree people do those? I will have to look into that. What freaks me out is the freemason connection to the Illuminati.

I've read that Joseph Smith was a 32 degree freemason. I've also read that 33 degree masons are Luciferian. What do you, personally, tell people when they bring up the fact that Joseph Smith was a freemason and that the temple has masonic symbolism on it? I don't know what to tell people when they ask me this, so I usually don't say anything. When I was a child, I went into a masonic temple for my friend's church dance (she was Presbyterian). That place had such an evil, creepy feeling inside. Don't quite know what to make of Joseph Smith being a freemason. What thoughts do you all have on this? I don't know what to think.

Okay, so I get to go to a disciplinary council. Never done this before. So, I wonder.... What is the procedure? What happens there? Going into uncharted territory. Oh, well. Hopefully, this helps me overcome my stuff I need to overcome. My bishop said it would. :/

The Wise Chinese Man (I heard this in Relief Society. It is by an unknown author) One day, the farmer's horse ran away, and all the neighbors gathered in the evening and said ‘that’s too bad.’ He said ‘I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.’ Next day, the horse came back and brought with it seven wild horses. ‘Wow!’ they said, ‘Aren’t you lucky!’ He said ‘I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.’ The next day, his son grappled with one of these wild horses and tried to break it in, and he got thrown and broke his leg. And all the neighbors said ‘oh, that’s too bad that your son broke his leg.’ He said,‘I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.’ The next day, the conscription officers came around, gathering young men for the army, and they rejected his son because he had a broken leg. And the visitors all came around and said ‘Isn’t that great! Your son got out.’ He said, ‘I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.’ Lesson: Sometimes the hard things in life may be blessings in disguise

Well, I had an emotional affair. But then I had a physical affair. It is my Greatest regret. Seriously, you are not being overbearing. You have reason to worry. Prayers sent up for you. <3

SomeLDSDude, I learned something very strange in my recovery from sexual addiction. So many times (SO Many), I begged God to take this away from me. He did not. Then I realized...... God is a gentleman. He will not take away my agency. He will let me choose to do evil things. Remember in the Garden of Gethsemane, the Savior asked Heavenly Father to let the cup pass from him. God did not let the cup pass from the Savior. But the Savior also said, "Not my will, but Thine be done." And God sent an angel to strengthen Him. I've learned one thing I need to do is surrender my right to lust. Not only that, but I have to surrender Me. Part of me, my addict, needs to die in order for me to really live. And I daily surrender my will to God's will, praying daily to know of His will for me and to have the courage to do His will. It is so hard. But I'm making progress, though I don't have perfection. When we stop acting out, sometimes if feels that we are going to die. Seriously. It can feel that way. But one minute at a time, one hour at a time, 24 hours at a time, we can stop acting out. And we find that not feeding the addiction does not kill us! :) Lust, by definition, does not satisfy. It creates cravings that make even more lust. And eventually you feel as though you're starving to death but haven't died. But there is hope...May you find it. <3

Dear SomeLDSDude: So many people suffer with sexual addictions. I suffer from a sexual addiction. So many times I tried to stop on my own. But I could not. I was powerless. But there is hope for us. There is a solution. For the past couple of months, I've been attending Sexaholics Anonymous meetings. They are so wonderful. This program helps people who are addicted to stop with the help of their Higher Power (God) and with the help of the fellowship. This program is helping me so much. Maybe you would like to become involved with SA also. Maybe it would help you. Here's how you can find meetings: Meeting Search Also, addictionrecovery.lds.org has a 12-step recovery program. There are probably meetings in your area. Prayers sent up for you.

Prayers sent up. Hang in there.

Seriously---You cannot know if it is over with her "friend". I am that wife. Keep an eye on her. Pray for her and for yourself. Hang in there.

My husband also refused to work for many years and played tons and tons and tons of video games during his free time. If I talked to him about getting a job, he would get defensive and end the conversation abruptly. I was soooooooooooo unhappy for many years. I was so unhappy for many, many, many years. Then I had an affair. Husband found out. He now works and plays very little video games (since he found out). But I never thought I would have an affair. I don't even know why I had one. I don't know if it was because of my unhappiness. But I realize whatever reason I am in this situation, I am not excused for behaving the way I have behaved. I'm just telling you this to let you know some of the Possible outcomes for such a miserable situation. Pray lots to figure out what you should do. This is my recommendation to you. Prayers sent up for you. I feel for your situation. It is so hard. Hang in there.

Have you asked God if He is?