MisterT

I have recurring dreams; some of them since childhood. I rather enjoy them and welcome them everytime I experience them. I find them comforting, entertaining, and they remind me of happier times as a niaeve child.

Wow... Just wow. Daen, what kind of dancing are you majoring in at University?

Being semi-aware and unable to move with intense feelings of fear are typically known as sleep-paralysis; you're technically awake, but your neurons are still randomly firing so you have mini-hallucinations (usually intense feelings of fear or if someone else is in the room with you), and your body is still paralized from the chemicals the petuitary gland secrets; this generally causes a state of panic, feelings of being watched or having someone pressing down on you, auditory or visual hallucinations, etc. I experience sleep paralysis regularly; typically because of how heavily medicated I am to sleep, and the types of medications I take (non-benzodiazapine setative hypnotics).

What do you get when you combine 50 female pigs and 50 male deer? A hundred sows and bucks.

Dreams, primarily, are nothing more than the random firing of neurons while we sleep; the unconcious part of the brain has to cleans its self of emotions it can't deal with; fear, fright, lonliness, longing, etc. and it does this through dreaming. Dreams of a holy nature, in my opinion, aren't dreams, but visions in an altered state of conciousness. We know from brainscans of dreaming patients what's happening in their minds, electrically speaking, and modern medical psychology has a pretty good handle on defining what dream pattern relate to; usually angst and pain. I don't think that a brainscan has ever been done on someone having a legitimate vision, so nothing is known about brainwave activity during one. Its my opinion that there is little purpose in having a dream-vision when simply praying about an issue, with a determined heart and true purpose will get you the answer that Heavenly Father feels is appropriate. FWIW I'm always 100% aware of my dreams and always know when I'm dreaming. I haven't had a nightmare since I was a child as I know when I'm having one and can change the course of the dream; a not unusual ability amongst people who have severe sleep disturbances such as I.

You'll find a number of divorced members within our ranks; me included. My wife divorced me after 14 years of marriage and 4 kids (she left after 12 of those years); I don't feel judged in the slightest, well, at least by the other members. I tend to judge myself quite harshly. If you're interested in learning of the church, I would recommend having an appointment with the missionaries; you can request a visit here: Have missionaries contact me You can also just find a meetinghouse and drop by for a visit. Every ward has full-time missionaries assigned to it; don't worry about finding them, they'll find you :) You can find a meetinghouse here: LDS Maps Also, feel free to ask any questions you may have here, but beware that you'll only get our opinion of things; for answers of doctrine without opinion you really need to speak with the missionaries or the Bishop in your area. -Ryan

Lexapro, mirtrazipine, ambien.

I don't make the assignments, I just try and visit whom they tell me to visit.

Pickled tomatoes are really good; so are pickled celery, onions, and turnip greens. I sure miss sauerbraten and jagerschnitzel; there are some fine German restaurants here in Milwaukee (Maders and Carl Rausch), but I can't afford to go there more than once a year. Its not hard to drop $200 on a meal at those places.

Roasted pig... probably was Spanfeckle, one of my favorites. I eat a primarily vegeterian diet most of the year with a fair amount of seafood; practically the only time I eat red meat is during hunting season when I take a few Antelope and a deer or two. I'm really into south-east asian cuisine; primarily Vietnamese and northern Thai; I love the vegeterian curries and spicy vegetables; plus Vietnamese Pho soup is pretty awesome. I used to drink (a lot) and I'd get salted fish, pickeled tomatoes, Baltika #4, Youri Dolgoruki vodka, and a big plate of Plov and have myself quite a night..

Its nice to meet you as well. There's some really good Russian markets down by Chicago where I can get traditional raw salo and the boiled version; I prefer the raw stuff myself. I like the chewy fattyness of it. I also really like the dried carp and sturgeon I can get down there; its especially good when there's roe inside. I've gotten pretty darn good at making Borscht; I do it about once a month and I make enough to freeze a few extra bowls.. when I don't eat it all at once. Being in Milwaukee isn't so good when it comes to ethnic foods; there's a very small asian, russian, persian, and eastern european population, but very few stores. When I want something I can't get up here I have to drive the 2 hours to chitown. I was stationed in Germany way back when, then Korea, Japan, and Central America; I used to eat my way around the world; there are very few types of food I can't stand, I'll pretty much eat anything I can get into my mouth, alive, dead, raw, or cooked. I'm an equal opportunity gourmand.

I have some friends that were Soviet Naval Officers; I used to spend a lot of time with them and picked up a few words here and there; along with an appreciation for sala, Borscht, Plov, and black bread with mother-in-law mustard. :)

That was the instructions for that particular ward. The others in the area didn't have those instructions. Turns out my worry was for naught; I just got a phone call from the corporation I was negotiating with and was told they were filling the position internally; so I guess I'm stuck here in Milwaukee where there isn't any kind of singles activites for the over 30 crowd.

Originally Southern California, but I've lived all over the US. Now I'm living in Milwaukee Wisconsin. You?

“Also, that there were two stones in silver bows—and these stones, fastened to a breastplate, constituted what is called the Urim and Thummim—deposited with the plates; and the possession and use of these stones were what constituted ‘seers’ in ancient or former times; and that God had prepared them for the purpose of translating the book.” (JS—H 1:34–35.) “Joseph Smith would put the seer stone into a hat, and put his face in the hat, drawing it closely around his face to exclude the light; and in the darkness the spiritual light would shine. A piece of something resembling parchment would appear, and on that appeared the writing. One character at a time would appear, and under it was the interpretation in English. Brother Joseph would read off the English to Oliver Cowdery, who was his principal scribe, and when it was written down and repeated to Brother Joseph to see if it was correct, then it would disappear, and another character with the interpretation would appear. Thus the Book of Mormon was translated by the gift and power of God, and not by any power of man.” (David Whitmer, An Address to All Believers in Christ, Richmond, Mo.: n.p., 1887, p. 12.) The PBS documentary specifically excluded the use of the Urim and Thummim and stated that a "seer stone," unrelated to the U&T was used. I simply gave my opinion of what I got out of the show; you don't have to like my opinion, its a free country.

Howdy!

I'm not sure if anyone else caught this series when it first aired a few years ago, but I picked it up from the Library yesterday and watched all 4 hours last night. My impressions are mixed. Its obvious that PBS went out of their way to appear as though they were presenting an unbiased investigation, but it became clear throughout the documentary that they did have an underlying agenda to provide more contrary information (such as Joseph Smith not using the Urim and Thummin [sP] and instead using a "Seer stone" in the bottom of a hat to translate the Golden Plates) and interviews with excommunicated members. I was moved by their coverage of the Churchs humanitarian relief efforts and found the eye-witness accounts to be inspiring, and there were many times when one of the General Authorities such as Dallin H Oaks was being interviewed that I had the proverbial "Burning in the bosom." All in all, I thought it was a well put together piece, and as far as secular historians go, one of the more balanced pieces; but one that will polarize anti-LDS sentiment and the faith of members alike.

Why would you want to keep it? Certainly not for sentimental reasons. I imagine you're interested in the rings for their monetary value (I don't blame you - get what you can, within the realm of the law and what's just). Sell them and split the proceeds equally; that way you have to argue less and get things over more quickly. The last thing you want to do is drag this out over an extended period because you won't budge on this issue. Get your divorce done with and get on with your life. If this is what it costs to do that, you're getting off cheap. FWIW my ex-wife kept her rings (not that they were worth much - we lived a minimalistic life) and I kept mine. Mine wasn't worth anything monetarily, but sentimentally it was without value. I had machined my ring from a control valve from a Nuclear Reactor (non-radioactive water loop).

I just don't want to be pressured to do any kind of dating for the forseeable future; which is a recurring theme recently. I was absolutely devastated by my divorce and I don't know that I'll ever truly recover from it.

If someone wants to charge me with a crime for speaking about Harry Reedbrain, let em' try.

Priyat, Droog!

I'm sorry, I wish I could say something or wave a magic wand and make it better for you, I really do. Its been two years for me and it still hurts, but it hurts less than it did back then, and every day it hurts a little less. Just don't make any rash decisions until you've had a few weeks to think and pray about it. I promise you that if you pray for comfort and if you should continue your education, you will be comforted and blessed with the knowledge of what our Heavenly Father wants for you.

Breakups are very hard. The first few days after my wife disappeared with my kids I was beside myself; of course I dealt with it by getting blind drunk for almost two weeks. Then I went through the period of begging her via the telephone to come home (not knowing she had alread moved 700 miles away). Then there was the anger, and finally the realization that there was nothing I could do about her and that I had to go on with my own life as best I could without my family. I have 4 daughters that I miss terribly. I haven't seen them in a year, or even talked to them. I get an occaisonal e-mail from my ex-wife, but that's usually when my child support payment is late by a day or two. I hate to think of my precious daughters going through what you are; but my advice to them would be the same as my advice to you; get your education, you're plenty young enough to start a family years from now. I know what it is to be lonely; I know what it is to be isolated from your family (mine are 2,000 miles away and I haven't seen them in 5 years or so); but you can get through this. And you'll be stronger as a result.

Please, finish your education! He's already broken up with you; its over. Move on with your life, get your Doctorate, and find a man who'll meet your needs. Don't try and make him fit into a mold that he won't; don't try to fit into his when you don't. And, like I previously said, I'm always looking for the future ex-MrsT if you're a glutton for punishment!

Does she deserve to know? Yes. But is it more harmful to her emotionally and spiritually to be told if she wouldn't have found out otherwise? I think it is. I couldn't care less what happens to him; emotionally, spiritually, physically. I only care about the one who was completely innocent in this situation. But from what you've written, I'm of the opinion that this isn't the first time he's done this; or if he hasn't acted out on it before you, he definately thought about it. Lying is a skill that takes time to master; it just doesn't come to you one day like filling up a cup of pop at the gas station. I hate to be the one to beat the drum here, but this is something you should have thought about before you did what you did. Imagine the horrible anguish your husband is going through right now. I can't even imagine his pain and suffering. Had my ex-wife cheated on me (and I have the suspicion that she was - just no proof), I would never be able to look her in the eye again; certainly never have a meal with her, and posititively never have marital relations again. She doesn't even know you; she'll forgive you sooner or later, probably after he does it again (if it was his first time) and she realizes that is the character of the man she married. Some women learn to accept their spouses infidelities and ignore them; others blame themselves for it. Some leave and some don't. It sounds to me like you still have a great number of feelings for him; you should seek professional counseling. It really sounds to me like he's got serious mental problems. I'll pray for the both of you; but more than that, I'll pray for your husband, his wife, and their children. They are the innocent parties here that were hurt by your and his infidelity and they deserve any and all support that the church and its members can send their way. -Ryan