HELP!! Need advice on sin ASAP!

[maceon]

I really need some advice on worthness and what I should do in my situation.

A year ago I broke the law of chasity and I had sex during the summer of 2011. It took me awhile to get the courage to talk to my bishop, especially since he is a close family friend. I never told him that I had problems before I had sex with masturbation but finally around January 2012 I was able to talk to my bishop about the having sex part and we began meeting about how to correct the situation and gain repentance. Around march or so we stopped meeting because we both felt the situation had been dealt and resolved with.

This summer however I feel like I have made some serious transgressions that need to be addressed and don't know what to do. I made the mistake of smoking marijuana with a friend near the end of june and than I feel the depression of that and guilt made me make some other poor choices. I went onto drink and get drunk and smoke marijuana some more times and I had oral sex with a boy, and personal masturbation issues resurfaced.

I have a history of serious depression issues which is what contributed to the first time I had sex, was issues relating to that and my home bishop knew some of my depression issues before when we began meeting. I have gone of my medication the past few months without anyone knowing so, and I know I've been feeling really low and in those moments I do things that are self destructive.

I don't know what to do. I'm about to start school this fall at a church school and I want to tell my new bishop about it but I don't know what I should tell him. Should I tell him about my first transgression, even though I already talked about it with my home ward bishop and will he tell my home ward bishop? Do I need to tell my school bishop that I broke the law of chasity and word of wisdom or do I need to go into more detail about what I exactly did or did not do? I never thought that not telling my home ward bishop about my masturbation issues prior to the first incident was dishonest because I didn't realize it needed to be addressed but I'm beginning to feel like it should have been addressed. I don't know what to do or how to handle this situation.

I'm sure that confessing to the full extent of my sins will lead to some sort of disciplinary action since they are so severe and happened more than once. I would not be surprised if it meant I could not partake of the sacrament for a period of time. But I'm not sure how to deal with that. I'll be in a new school as a freshman and people in my school ward I'm sure will notice that I can't take the sacrament and I don't know how to handle that judgement. Any suggestions on how to handle that? How should I approach my school bishop when I do decided to tell him?

I apologize for all the questions but this is really important if you guys could help me answer all of the things in this post. I feel really lost and don't know what to do.

[applepansy]

You need to talk to your Bishop and tell him everything you've posted here. He really is the only one who can help you.

[Vort]

You need to get this taken care of immediately, as in today. Call your bishop now and tell him you have to talk with him immediately. He'll probably talk to you first thing tomorrow morning.

[Sicily510]

I hope you do feel the spirit that you must speak of everything that burdens your spirit negatively with the Bishop, the purpose of them is to help you heal from sickness, depression, and all that's caused you to dwell on your past wrong choices. The fact that you know that you want to be worthy is wonderful, we are all striving to be spiritually worthy and seeking for that is all we need along with charity and faith.

[slamjet]

As a person who is excommunicated, I can tell you this; members are much more understanding and sympathetic to a person who has committed a sin and is dealing with it, rather than running away from it. In my experience, most every one in my stake know I've been excommunicated because as I began to be more active and have been given responsibilities, I found it necessary to let them know so they knew what level of activity I was allowed and what level of expectations needed to be set. How I told them is thus: "I'm working out my repentance." And believe it or not, the response has been nothing but positive. Those who have issues are those who have little understanding of the Atonement.

With that, don't worry about others. They're not the ones who determine your salvation, you are. Go talk to your Bishop and be totally open and honest with him. His job is to guide you through the repentance process and it doesn't start until you confess. And be humble enough to take what comes your way. Believe me, the fruits of doing so in the short term is painful, but is good beyond belief when you get through it.

[MormonMama]

I've been through the repentance process twice for sexual sin. I'm now the Second Counselor in the Primary Presidency and the Primary President told me that she felt a strong prompting that I should be called to this position. So clearly, forgiveness is possible, even after multiple transgressions.

I agree with everyone else: talk to your bishop as soon as possible! Any disciplinary action taken will be to HELP you. It's sort of like taking a step back, taking a deep breath, and starting on the path again slowly. If you were climbing a mountain and you slipped and fell, you probably wouldn't just jump right back into what you were doing, you would reassess and see what you needed to do differently to proceed safely. It's the same concept.

Also, please get treatment for your depression! You already suspect that it is at least part of what caused you to commit these sins in the first place, so you know you need to get that under control as well.

Good luck and don't be afraid to talk to your bishop. He is there to help you.

[Backroads]

I personally pay absolutely no attention to other people while they take or do not take of the sacrement. they have to be sitting very close to me for me to notice. I wouldn't worry about people watching me at all.

[ditd]

Go and talk to your Bishop, he will be glad you have come to talk to him so that he can help bring you closer to the saviour again.

I went to talk to my bishop about some things that I felt were not right in my life and he was loving, understanding. First he chatted about how I am then he allowed me to tell my story, asked a few relevent questions before sharing scriptures, talking about the gospel and life before offering me counsel. I was nervous before hand however a man called with the responsibility to love the ward will do whatever he does with kindness in his heart and mind.

As for nervousness about taking the sacrement, do not worry about such things as nobody else does, just focus one day at a time on being worthy to take it again :)

[MormonMama]

I personally pay absolutely no attention to other people while they take or do not take of the sacrement. they have to be sitting very close to me for me to notice. I wouldn't worry about people watching me at all.

Excellent point! I don't notice either, although I have to admit that both times I was going through the repentance process myself, I was just sure that EVERYBODY noticed that I didn't take the Sacrament!

And of course they're all too busy praying, reading their scriptures or fiddling with their fidgety children to pay attention to who is and who isn't taking the sacrament.

[Misshalfway]

Feeling so lost and burdened is part of the yucky residue that sin leaves behind.

Go tell the whole story to the bishop. Don't leave out any details. The bishop can discern what is relevant today and what is not.

My question for you is.....are you ready to change your life? Have you learned the lessons of playing with fire? Are you ready to live a better way? One that doesn't hurt so much?