hi, i think one of the hardest things is to forgive yourself and love yourselfbut maybe in time that comes. congradulations on ur babygirl, having a baby girl is special, all babies are, but a little girl to love, nursh does something special to daddies I beleive. Ive found out that we all seek for happiness, success, fullment and when we dont have it we go into the world searchingfor it but we only find more misery The truth is we already had the best we just didnt realize it, happiness real happiness and fulfilment comes to us from with in the gospel. Is life easy? no. Do u get all u want, even within the gospel, by living a righteous lifeas much as we can? no but its the best way to go. Not much in life is easy but walking in the ways of theLord is the best way which will give us the most happiness. Go back to church, talk to your Bishop hewill help you. He will walk you thru whatever you need Good Luck. I now you can do it You might slip and fall from time to time I think most of us do Hey no one is perfect. Just get up again.