Lee

Sadly this is quite a common scenario. It's one reason I didn't serve a mission. The missionaries are insincere with you, they don't care about you or your children you are just potential baptisms to make sure they hit their targets. It's sad because your children deserve better than that especially if their father served a mission for the church and now his children are not being helped by missionaries because missionaries only care about their figures and not the people. I suggest that you teach them yourself maybe you can get some inspiration from Lds.org. You could start doing a family home evening with your children, you may not be as knowledgeable as the missionaries but at least you care for your children. 
 
I completely understand wanting to distance yourself from people at your late husband's church whilst you were grieving .  

My sister-in-law was widowed the day her son was born and she distanced herself from everyone except me (we were really close) for a long time. She even distanced herself from my parents but they understood that she needed time alone to figure things out without anyone else's influence. After 3 or 4 years she started speaking to my parents again and my mother didn't hold a grudge she was just happy to have her grandson in her life. My sister-in-law did also go back to the same ward for a while but she never resettled there and eventually moved away. She felt like people didn't treat her the way they did before her husband died and didn't like the sympathy or pity. I don't blame you for not wanting to go to that ward and I understand the constant struggle you face because I care for my nephew now and I constantly feel like I am letting my brother down. 

Sad that your husband was a faithful servant to the church and now there is apparently no time to teach his children. 

Being half English I have a natural dislike of Argies, so glad they lost 

If I have a son then I will be very excited and I can turn them into a soccer prodigy. 

Good point. I used to look at my tattoo everyday and think I am lucky to be alive so that was positive for me but at the same time I would slightly relive things I didn't want to. Unfortunately, I will always have this problem because I can't remove the scar but the OP can avoid putting a mark on their body that will remind them of struggles they would rather forget. 

To be fair my wife and I lived separately so we could both attend grad school. She wasn't a bad wife for not following me and I wasn't a bad husband for not following her. 
 
I will defend him. 
 
Change is scary for anyone, she has been without him for a while it seems so she is used to that. Why would she be scared to still live apart from him? It makes more sense that she is scared to emigrate than to stay in Costa Rica. 
 
It isn't living with JayKi she is afraid of, it is living in a different country. It shows that she loves JayKi if she is willing to marry him 

No is wont be disaster we have lots obstacles but we be together 9 year and our love is only get stronger

My wife and I got married in our last year of college and after a few months we realised we would be going to different grad schools that were miles apart and we would have to live separately for a year. It wasn't ideal but we saw each other once a month for a few days. There were challenges of living apart I missed my wife very much and when we moved back in together after a year it felt strange for a while. Whilst it is doable I would try to convince your fiancee to at least trial living in England with you for 6 months after you are married. 

To my shame I forgot the Danish were at the World Cup I will be supporting Denmark as well as England. 

And that's where you and I are different.  I don't demand that my husband drop every relationship he's ever had in his life.  As a matter of fact, I feel that if he does then he has moved farther from Christ.  You can't love people (bringing them closer to Christ) unless you put an emotional investment in every single one of them.

Bro she is just fulfilling her calling and having a friend. So what she has an emotional bond with a man, that doesn't mean she is having an emotional affair. Sorry man I think you should get some counselling for paranoia. Unless there is more to this I advise you to trust your wife. 

I want to be a good father. 
 
I had a very loving relationship with my mother when I was growing up but not with my father. I hated him and he ruined my childhood, I used to wish he would just disappear or leave. Now I can see my father in me sometimes when I am handling my nephew and I hate it. 
 
I know that being a father means putting my child first and even though I always want to live with my wife and child I will leave if it is better for my child. 

My wife does take precedence  

Yes they will but in Spanish so you wont know what they say anyway. 

My brother killed himself the day his son was born, he didn't have any addictions, he had a good job, he was active in the church and he seemed happy.
You assume that it is only or predominantly people who have a bad life that are tempted to commit suicide or perhaps people who are doing something wrong. 

I never said that. My wife is of course my priority. 

I didn't think that your post covered mental health problems in a sensitive way

My only advice would be to reach out to the people who love you and the people you love. 

My brother killed himself the day his son was born, he didn't have any addictions, he had a good job, he was active in the church and he seemed happy.
You assume that it is only or predominantly people who have a bad life that are tempted to commit suicide or perhaps people who are doing something wrong. 

My brother took his own life almost 9 years ago and there is a lot I disagree with in your post. 

Parenting is not easy for anybody. I'm a new father myself, and my wife and I had six years to prepare for and have our kid (infertility) and it was still hard. But most worthwhile things are hard. A lot of times when talking about raising kids we like to focus on the negative, but let me tell you, the first time your baby looks up at you, and bursts into a huge smile while you are getting ready for work, your world will change. I cannot describe how much joy comes from parenting, or how much I've learned about God in the short 3 months since my daughter showed up. Do not let fear ruin one of life's greatest joys for you.

My mother is one of my best friend. I dont think is uncommon or weird. Maybe you were no close with you own mother. 

Heads up my wife once asked me if I loved her or my mother more. I told her it was no competition of course I love my mother more. I think I slept on the couch for a couple of weeks. If your wife ever asks you that just lie. 

Seriously? If you have found the woman you want to marry and who God wants you to marry, then to bail because she or you are unsure about being sexually compatible is a terrible idea. Sex with your spouse should not be a consideration of whether it is right to marry your fiancee, that is carnal and completely wrong.