my two cents

FWIW, I have no concerns about "worthiness".  It just seems to me a matter of general scruffiness that seems ill-suited for a wedding, temple or not.  If you want to be bearded for the big day, plan it out, grow it out, trim it up, and wear it with pride!
But it seems like here we have these brides spending months finding The Dress and choosing The Hairdo and hours planning and primping over their makeup to have Everything Perfect; and then you have their grooms taking five seconds to look in the mirror and thinking "meh, I've shaved hundreds of other mornings in my life, but today's my wedding day, so . . . what the heck?!" And off to the chapel they saunter.
And those of you who think differently can just . . . well . . . get off my lawn, for starters.

The new Tucson temple will be dedicated tomorrow and the local members invite the community and put on an event to celebrate. The Church started this tradition several years ago but this is the first time I've heard of it being broadcast.

For those who want to watch it - it's tonight at 7:00 mst - https://www.lds.org/broadcasts/watch/tucson-arizona-temple-cultural-celebration/2017/08?lang=eng

Our divorce is final. His girlfriend's divorce is still ongoing, however, so the repercussions are continuing. They hide their relationship for now, but when they're both legally free to move forward, I'm pretty sure I know who my kids' stepmom will be. ?
My financial situation and emotional well-being have improved by leaps and bounds now that I am not being manipulated or taken advantage of by him anymore. I have primary custody, but with such young kids, we will be interacting for years to come. He makes co-parenting difficult and spreads lies about me. 
Life as a working, single mom of four is incredibly stressful and lonely. But I receive so many blessings for remaining faithful! I see God's hand in my daily life, buoying me up, teaching me, refining my testimony, helping me overcome my weaknesses. Though I have been utterly betrayed by the one who covenanted to love and support me, my heartache is lessened by hope in God's blessings. I have a long road ahead of me with heavy burdens to bear, but I know in Whom I have trusted.

I don't think sharing sins is appropriate, remember it is a "Fast and testimony meeting" not a "Fast and tell-a-story meeting"
 

When you buy a missionary car*, they don't try to sell you anything else but wouldn't mind at all if you pulled out the Book of Mormon to read! 
*highly recommend - below blue book, regular maintenance done, not smoked in...

What a wonderful tribute.  I have some special needs children, and I agree, that although there are challenges, they bring such a wonderful spirit and our a blessing in our home.  I too have a nonverbal child.  I believe these children , verbal and nonverbal, are so special and have been so vailiant and our protected from the adversary.  I believe they have  a special mission on this earth. I believe the parents & family that have a child(ren) like that to grace their home, have  a special mission to do that and will be blessed.  This life is about serving others and seeing beauty and joy in the simple things.  I believe children like this our so in tune spiritually and help us focus on what is really important.
 

Would it not be more beneficial to state that you are trying to actively grow in your testimony of the Book of Mormon each day as you continually search for knowledge and light? I don't think it's necessary to start sharing your intimate, personal details relating to what revelation you have or have not received. But sharing that as a member of the church you're continuing to work on your testimony, specifically in the area of the Book of Mormon, is uplifting for all of those at different parts on the path of their testimony. It applies to those who may be in a similar situation to you, and to those who have a firm testimony of the Book of Mormon but need the reminder that you have to continually strengthen your testimony. 

Like I said, I think Church is a place you go to bolster faith, not cast doubt.  I wouldn't be interested in hearing your talk.  I'd find it odd and out of place.  If I heard that talk at my first visit, I probably wouldn't go back.

When you buy a missionary car*, they don't try to sell you anything else but wouldn't mind at all if you pulled out the Book of Mormon to read! 
*highly recommend - below blue book, regular maintenance done, not smoked in...

A testimony is a witness. What you're talking about is "bearing" a non-testimony. The purpose of bearing testimony is to state what you know and why, not what you don't know. So by definition, confessing your lack of knowledge is not a testimony. Might be appropriate in some cases; not in fast and testimony meeting. Saying that you believe a gospel principle to be true is always appropriate.
In general, you don't discuss your sins with others unless the others are your Priesthood leader or other person offering counsel, or (rarely) if the sin is an apt illustration of some point you need to make. So the basic rule is: Don't talk about your sins. I'd say this is triply true if you are speaking over a pulpit. The congregation is there to hear testimony of the word of God, not public confession of sin.

Well, if there's someone who doesn't have something to work on, they get translated. No one is perfect yet; we all have things to work on. Anger, gossip, addictions, sloth...If it helps, assume that whoever is speaking has a Christlike attribute they are working to improve.
A testimony in a secular sense is to bear witness to the truth. Ask a lawyer (or someone who played one on tv). Fast and testimony meetings are meant to be uplifting, edifying, and encouraging. Moreso than regular sacrament meetings. This is why it seems you've only heard people share what they know to be true. Most of the admissions of doubt appear in more personal settings, such as Sunday School classes, where open and relevant discussion can occur, which helps the doubter nourish their seeds of faith.
 

Another thing, apostles have promised great blessings for those who work on family history (including indexing). Here's just one quote: 
Elder Bednar testified: “A yearning for connection to our past can prepare an individual to receive the virtue of the word of God and fortify his or her faith. A heart turning to the fathers uniquely helps an individual withstand the influence of the adversary and strengthen conversion.”
 

@clbent04 -- I will begin my thoughts with the first question, "Are Confessions Kept Confidential by Bishops?" A truthful answer they should be; however, bishops are human and sadly there are plenty of examples where a bishop has not kept confidentiality, casually or strictly. This reminds me of a funny story in my teen years. I was busy talking to other teens and the bishop pointed us out (note, I didn't hear what he was saying before his question to us), and said, 'Raise your hand if I have." Well, as an obedient teenager, I raised my hand. The previous statement was, "Have I ever not been confidential"? By which his response to my affirmative raise of hand, "Anddenex, NO I HAVE NOT." Everyone laughed because they knew I was only being obedient to "raise your hand." Doh!
In the scenario provided, "Yes, confidentiality was kept between you and the bishop." The bishop was honoring your father's stewardship, and as steward (sealing & covenant) your actions reflect upon your father/mother. As others have mentioned, the father is supposed to be the spiritual leader in your home. In a perfect world, sons should first come to their father (as the sons of Adam would have come to him), confess and then together the father and son (an eternal bond) then go to the bishop.
As we are not in a perfect world, there are other avenues. One is the avenue you took, confession to your bishop, by which the bishop honors stewardship inviting you to speak with your father. There are other avenues, what if your bishop is your father, and you are not ready to confess to your father/bishop? Well, this scenario has already been given a avenue as well, confess to your stake president. The stake president will work with you, and eventually you (general) will speak with your father/bishop. There are proper avenues, and their are acceptable avenues.
We all hope, as fathers, that we have a relationship with our sons and daughters that they will come to us first, and then together we take them through the proper channels of confession. In every confession I have known of, involving youth, the youth is invited to talk with their parents. If they don't, then the bishop, possibly through council with stake president, will encourage parents to have a one-on-one with their child. In some cases, this is an opportunity for the parents to review their relationship with their own offspring, their heirs.

I read today in the Deseret News that a General Authority was excommunicated.  What caught my attention wasn't that he of all people was excommunicated, but that it was the first time in "28 years since an LDS General Authority has been excommunicated" and prior to that a 46-year period!  So only 2 General Authorities have been excommunicated in 74 years?!?!  That to me is remarkable.  Not that it would be remarkable to everyone.  
After interacting with Church leadership over the years, men who I've come to hold as examples to me in my own life, I cannot help but feel their callings are divinely inspired.  And to someone like me who has already received spiritual confirmation of Church leadership, how much more is it a testament that they are chosen by God to these positions when so few have been excommunicated?  
If man was running the show without God's revelation at deciding who would be in Church leadership, and somehow still held accountable to the same standards, imagine how chaotic that would be.  How many excommunications would we see then?  The turnover would be tremendous.  Men can't see what God sees when it comes to the preparedness of the heart, and the appointment to these full-time positions of service needs the steadiest of hands to guide.  
Also, to my knowledge, the Church has never experienced a financial scandal or misappropriation of funds.  That speaks volumes to me for a nearly 200 year old organization.  

@clbent04, I don't know if this will help you, but it keeps coming to mind, so I'll repeat it here in case it will help you.  Some years ago, I recognized that there was something I wanted which was simply not right.  But how do you rid yourself of a desire?  Self-control by sheer will power will only work for behavior and only for so long when you want something else.  Since I could think of nothing else, I determined that I would include in literally every prayer I said a request that the desire be taken away.  And then I got up and did the best I knew to obey the gospel as I understood it (I did the Sunday School answers with the best intent I could muster).  It took about 2 years for me to notice any difference - by that time, I wasn't looking for any difference, I was just doing my best, following the routine I'd established.  It came as a surprise how much my heart had changed.  It wasn't me who changed my heart - I still couldn't begin to tell you how to do that.  It was Christ.
If you haven't done that, I recommend you start right now and continue for however many years it takes.
A lot of all the other stuff you've been saying in this thread and others is seriously Satan's lies and deceits designed exclusively to get you to give up hope.  Christ has said that as often as we repent, he will forgive.  The difference between Celestial and non-Celestial beings is that the Celestial beings kept repenting and the non-Celestial beings gave up.  Don't give up.  You don't have to obtain mastery of every weakness in this life - that would be a cruel joke as none of us will succeed at that.  I am 100% convinced you will have as long as you need to obtain mastery - or as long as you need to give up once and for all and condemn yourself to a lesser kingdom.  Which of these you choose is up to you.
When I said to tell Satan to take a hike, I meant it literally.  If you are alone (or with those who could appropriately hear it), say it out loud and invoke Christ's name as your point of authority.  If you are among others, simply say it in your mind.  Kick him out.
(There are lots of other things you need, but you cannot possibly do this without Christ changing your desires and without kicking Satan out.)

I appreciate your honesty and I'm truly sorry about your parents as well your struggles.
Besides the church arp that a&a mentioned above, I know there are others. One site that might be helpful is this http://rowboatandmarbles.org/how-a-rowboat-and-a-handful-of-marbles-can-help-mormons-overcome-porn-addiction.html
Avoidance is only part of the solution, you need things to fill the void. Maybe you already know that.
Anyway, I don't see how not going to church is going to help and that's pretty easy to change so start there. 

Another thing, apostles have promised great blessings for those who work on family history (including indexing). Here's just one quote: 
Elder Bednar testified: “A yearning for connection to our past can prepare an individual to receive the virtue of the word of God and fortify his or her faith. A heart turning to the fathers uniquely helps an individual withstand the influence of the adversary and strengthen conversion.”
 

Another thing, apostles have promised great blessings for those who work on family history (including indexing). Here's just one quote: 
Elder Bednar testified: “A yearning for connection to our past can prepare an individual to receive the virtue of the word of God and fortify his or her faith. A heart turning to the fathers uniquely helps an individual withstand the influence of the adversary and strengthen conversion.”
 

I appreciate your honesty and I'm truly sorry about your parents as well your struggles.
Besides the church arp that a&a mentioned above, I know there are others. One site that might be helpful is this http://rowboatandmarbles.org/how-a-rowboat-and-a-handful-of-marbles-can-help-mormons-overcome-porn-addiction.html
Avoidance is only part of the solution, you need things to fill the void. Maybe you already know that.
Anyway, I don't see how not going to church is going to help and that's pretty easy to change so start there. 

Another thing, apostles have promised great blessings for those who work on family history (including indexing). Here's just one quote: 
Elder Bednar testified: “A yearning for connection to our past can prepare an individual to receive the virtue of the word of God and fortify his or her faith. A heart turning to the fathers uniquely helps an individual withstand the influence of the adversary and strengthen conversion.”
 

Another thing, apostles have promised great blessings for those who work on family history (including indexing). Here's just one quote: 
Elder Bednar testified: “A yearning for connection to our past can prepare an individual to receive the virtue of the word of God and fortify his or her faith. A heart turning to the fathers uniquely helps an individual withstand the influence of the adversary and strengthen conversion.”
 

On my phone, in my gospel library app under the family tab, there is something called the Addiction Recovery Porgram: A Guide to Addiction Recovery and Healing. I look forward to hearing your views tomorrow on how helpful you think it will be and how you will use it in your ongoing efforts at recovery

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I think it's so people don't question what he had said in Conference talks, etc since they're still online.